JiaMin

2007-11-30T11:51:00.000+08:00

Yes.
I'm pissed.
And i don't intend to tell you tat cuz i'm not pissed with you.
I don't understand anything anymore.
GO AWAY.
You better not have any genes tat related in any way if not you'll just hav to go.
*current mood= irritated*
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BROWNIES
enuf said
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Had a wonderful evening.
Drank iced choc and cookies n' cream at GJC at marina.
Had cereal fried rice and xiao long bao for lunch!
Sent Christalle to choir at Esplanade.
Went to Arena for K-Boxing. Screamed my lungs out and drank til my face turned red. I LOVE RASPBERRY VODKA. Got surprised by a big hugable soft toy dog.
Went to Jurong HillTop restaurant.
OMG. tHE FOOD THERE IS FAB!
Tepanyaki. PRAWNS. sOFT SHELL CRAB (yuck). SALMON (OMG. Tis is the best). And lotsa appetisers! YUM YUM. Desert= strawberry ice cream and honeydew sago (brilliant)
I STILL DON'T LIKE TO EAT PRAWN HEAD!
Watched a dragonfly trying to get out from the air-coned room.
Strolled around the hill then went down.
A little creepy and utterly windy.
Sat in a bus full of _______. I'm surrounded! Haix.. The little female ratio is sending me the creeps.
Went to Lakeside park.
Enjoyed the calm and windy night.
Watched ripples.
Danced in the moonlight. (ok.. There were lights in the pavelion)
Got freaked out by frogs. Got blisters.
Summing up the pros and cons, It was a good date (bdae celebration)
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Current mood=still pissed

2007-11-27T11:25:00.000+08:00

Had a lot of dreamz lately...
Bout me and X and S, chatting happily with each other, going out to have coffee and shopping..
And in the dreams, everyone was happy, as though nothing has happened before.
But for a spilt second, after i realise all was but a dream, i felt so depressed..
Is there nothing we can do to make it work again?
Or has it ever worked before?
Can time really heal?
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Went swimming that day with darl!
Realised how a bad swimmer i was!
And how a good swimmer he was.
LOLX.
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Went to NANHUA SEC that day too. Actually wanted to listen to E band but in E end too shy to go in.
Played PSP E whole time i was waiting there.
But the school is cool. Toured around the school a little before going back.
Realised that Zaewe is FRIENDLY
One of his juniors remembered me!
LOLX.
realised that Doris got a lot of free make-up sessions.
LOLX.
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YEAH! Comp finally working~~! But it wasn't me... Hahax...
I'm still a comp idiot.
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Helped to deco for Christian's (darl's bro) birthday bash. It was great fun! Though a bit tiring. LOLX.
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looking forward to the 29th!
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miss my friends..
ok.
where's the OG OUTING?!
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Tonight is PROM for the J2s! Can't wait to see the photos!
*obsessed*
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DOTA is so FRIGHTENING

2007-11-21T16:44:00.000+08:00

OK. My computer system decided to say bye bye to me, leaving me in distress.
*KICKX*
I HATE COMPUTERS.
I just don't understand why are there so many viruses nowadays..
And i had to reformat the whole thing MYSELF
Now it's ACTING as though it is good again
But i'm sure it'll resume it's evil ways soon after i return the CDs for reformatting.
So i'm not taking any chances.
STUPID COMP
Majong is a fun game which allows at least 2 ppl to have fun.
But three would have been better if not the "peng" and "chi" becomes the same meaning.
But had great fun playing it with darl.
Read a book which was great! Hadn't had a good read for ages.
But it was kinda typical------ girl with a crazy life and tonnes of setbacks tried fighting for herself. Nearly gave up in the end but manages to get her life together again. But the writer is so witty i couldn't stop reading. =]
Played badminton with darl and perspire like hell.
But it was fun and it was a great work out! =]
only that i broke my toe nail in the process. And now half of it is chipped off.
The remaining tiny piece looked like some plastic with a chip edge.
OH.
And there's a weird dream last night.
Dream of being late for some band performances at CSS band. And i missed the whole thing cuz i was lost.
HORRIBLE
I missed CMB
A LOT
Was suppose to go to shi quan's BBQ that day. But couldn't cuz my Aunt was suppose to come. In the end she didn't and i had to skip the whole thing.
I miss some ppl in CMB
but it's ok. Shall meet up some day. IF i am acknowledged, that is...
shall deal with the stupid comp virus now~
GO TO HELL VIRUS

2007-11-15T20:31:00.000+08:00

How often do you get paid while having fun?
I LOVE JAP STUDENTS!
OK.. Maybe my group was fun with 6 cheery girls. =]
But there was this language barrier which went bonkers at times. But we had so much fun about the words
*we ar hu* =*we are full*
But everything was expensive for them. And those things were expensive for me too!
Got lost a couple of times when i was suppose to be the tour guide. HAHAHAX.
But St Andrew's Cathedral was cool~
The Supreme court wasn't cool~
And Esplanade was not v COOLing but it was COOL
Ate pasta mania~ They love it! And they hated spicy stuff. Like when they ate the S'pore kinda curry that day. LOLX.
And of course, NEOPRINTS.
they're so good with the machines! hahax.
S'pore neoprints v expensive~ Jap hav cheaper ones at half price. OMG.
After a *weepy* goodbye, went to coffee bean with my darl and DORIS!
She went for the touring thing too! LOLX.
But she got a group of 8 GUYS
Lucky(poor) girl.
then we got kinda bored le so went shopping. But darl have to study! hahahax
Had false alarms~
Bought an eye liner and sharperner at a discounted price! YAYA!
Have a translator dream
hoping to pick up JAP heheh
Must learn to be contented with what i have

2007-11-14T09:37:00.000+08:00

lbFinally time to update. =]
PROJECT WORK PRESENTATION
I thought i would throw up or something. Presentation went well but when i have to answer questions, i blacked out. After talking for like 5 sec, i wasn't sure of what to sae anymore and i looked down for like 5 secs bvefore i continued with some lame things like world peace. WHY THAT QUESTION?! This is so unlucky.
BIRTHDAY
That's one thing that i really regret------ switching off the vibration of my phone. At midnight, Sarah, Evan, David and Christofle came to surprise me. Befor tat Sarah told me that she and Evan would be busy on my birthday and wouldn't celebrate it with me anymore and got me so terribly upset.
Then they came with a cake( a slice of durian cake!) and surprises for me at midnight. But i was asleep and they nearly burnt E house down juzt to wake me up. Lolx. But my mum heard E Bday song they sang. Just didn't check up on the noises cuz my dad told her shes was hallucinating..
At the end they went home disappointed.
But even if i didn't get to witness E surprise i was deeply touched by the wonderful gesture.
On the 10th of nov, sarah, evan and I went out together to pizza hut! YUM YUM~ Then we met some CSS band people at JEC. I even met my juniors at Pizza hut. For a moment, i miss CSS band like crazy.. Perhaps it was heaven's wish to make me miss a lot of ppl on my bdae..
Then Sarah, evan and i took neoprints too! So fun!
First experience at a catholic church
Rushed to St Francis (correct spelling?) after getting a message from my darl asking me if i would like to join him alone for a church gathering. Flagged the taxi like a crazy women before arriving at the gates of the church late and seatless. LOLx. So we stood through the whole thing.
The place is cool! With very nice singing sessions and songs. =] Although i don't know the lyrics of the songs, it's possible to guess what's coming up next at times.
It's the first time i saw him kneel.. Freaked me a little..
And there's this holy bread thingy that looks a bit like a round thin piece of plastic. Suppose to eat t.. HE WOULDN'T LET ME HAVE IT! LOLx. Cuz it's a sin to eat it if you're not a catholic. He says that it'll turn to blood if you bring it home.. *kick him*
I like the "peace to you" session. Cuz after the whole thing, you have to wish everyone peace or something. And i got a peck. =]
An outing with Seha
we went to check out the locations of singapore tourist attractions cuz we're gonna bring a group of jap students around on a touring thingy tml! we walked til ou legs are going to break! But it was fun and i learnt lotsa things from her. =] It's really fun to catch up with secondary school friends!
A farewell outing with sarah
I'm gonna missed her a lot.. Went shopping with her. It was a great feeling.. Just like before.. Perhaps the way we shop is very similar. We would enter every shop in search of something. LOLx. BUt of course, she can walk more. So i ended up resting as she pranced around the shop in search of a perfect shoe. LOLx. And she CAN take ages.
And we chatted through lunch. It was fab.. Really have a lot a lot of say to her and hear from her.. Might not have been able to do so for a very long time...
And the most succesful thing out of the shopping trip---- we both bought the same skirt in a sale. The skirt cost $43 without discount and $19 after discount. IT'S A STEAL.
And as we were shopping, we met some former classmates.. For a moment i thought i was choked with emotions and could only manage a smile. Perhaps time really cannot cleanse everything. The hurt would still remain and awkwardness will follow. Even apologies meant nothing. As much as i dreamt that things would go back to when they were still fresh, i realise that they wouldn't. So let's just continue from where we left off the last time...

2007-08-12T09:32:00.000+08:00

So many things have happened since i last blogged..

SCREWED NATIONAL DAY REHEARSAL

Had to conduct since Cass got learning journey. But i'm not good at it and kept doing E wrong things.. No matter how hard i tried, i still couldn't and end up feeling dejected and lost. And learnt bout losa ugly things people said bout the band and felt downright awful.

*cried and played with my fave band toy*

commontest

studied and studied for commontest. End up result oso not tat good.. =[ But nevertheless, shall improve! And must thk dar for missing out on crab and a lot of other stuff to help me. =] the nights we spent studying at mac has helped! I'm sure.

GAL'S DAY OUT

Spent a day at Evan's hse. Got one guy so weird. He kept stalking us even til we reached Evan's hse. Crazy ar! This is so damn weird. Then Evan said it's not E first time le. And He's damn bold! He even took E same lift as us and everything. -_-"

Evan's dog is so cute! But he kept barking and looked very violent so dun dare to pet him. I tink he'll bite me lor.. =[ She even got fishes. LOLX. the big one startled sarah and me cuz it suddenly swam up behind us. LOLx.

We watched 2 movie and they were great! I LOVE GAL'S DAY OUT!

national's day performance

the perforamance turned out to be great afterall. Many thks to everyone who played a part.. At least not so EMO le. =]

100 day anniversary

i love easter lilies and i love roses. And the best is i didn't even hint for it or anything. Lolx.. And i love movies. Thankx dear.. Nothing's better than to watch movies with u and savour ur cooking. =] happy 100 day anniversary. I'm sure there's a lot more hundreds to comes. =]

movie time

Had a fun time playing pool with Zaewe, cass and dar. D.S.P! LOLx... suppose to be a band discussion thou.. Lolx.. Then me and dar rushed off to watch the SIMPSONS. We bought lotsa sushi to smuggle in. LOLX. The movie was funny! But my fave movie is still "corpse bride"!!! =]

sentosa band "farewell party"

had much fun on the beach.. "monkey" in the water was fun. And i sumed up a lot of courage to swim to the island without the "volley ball" float and back. =]

Bought a bikini with cass. LOVED IT! lolx..

Pizza was great and all. And bridge was fun!

Though i had a terrible sunburn!

*sun*

2007-07-25T20:36:00.000+08:00

hI do learn from failure

I'll improve and be a better conductor in future..

Sorry to all that have suffered cuz of me.. Although i don't mean it, and i tried my very best in getting the tempo, my brain failed me.. And as sorry as i am, i cant forget the fact that i can only cue in correctly after so many tries and i messed up the band for more than 5 times...

Yes.. I'm disappointed..

If i hadn't put in effort, i wouldn't have cared.. But i did so it hurt like hell...

It hurts more when you feel that people are not happy with you even when u tried your best..

I may not be the best, but i put in my best efforts..

so forgive me

music

2007-07-23T20:47:00.000+08:00

It hurts when you are scolded in a canteen by a teacher

Hurts more when you're scolded cuz of a shirt that is not printed to satisfaction

Hurts even more when you are the only one who was scolded and when there was a reason why things were done that way..

with no explaination, even apologies weren't accepted.. What can i do? Haix...

2007-07-21T16:17:00.000+08:00

what can i do to make you mine

fallen so hard, so fast tis time

wad did i sae, wad did u do

how did i fall in love with you?

Yesterday, nothing went right...

It was the second time dar flared up at me though it only lasted less than 5 secs like las time. Last time was cuz i kept mentioning my ex and for a moment, he felt inferior and told me not to talk bout my ex in a harsh tone. A sudden wave of shock and sadness filled me. And he apologised after knowing i felt sad..

Yesterday, we went to woodlands cuz he wanted to bring me somewhere but when we reach there, turned out that E bus wasn't there. So he decided to bring me to the beautiful park at marina bay.. Had a nice slp on the MRT. =] But turned out that E park was down for renovation.. He wanted to walk all the way back to the mrt but it's so long so i wanted a bus ride. He looked so upset so i thought he don't wanna take E bus and even chided him gently for wanting to walk such a long way back. He got kinda mad and say "it's not that lah!" then i found out that it was cause everything failed and he felt like a failure.. Then i told him "perhaps today God wans me to bring u somewhere instead" And we went to China town to shop for cheongsam.

China town was cool~ We went around shopping for cheongsam. Then got one indian guy scammed us! He said tailoring one need ard two hundred plus.. Where got so ex! Then we went to eat ah balling glutinious rice balls and oyster egg! YUM! It's only when we were going home that we found a shop selling beautiful cheongsams which were below $100. =] And we realise China Town oso got sex shops! OMG.. Throughout the whole trip, we passed by 2. LOLx.

And yesterday, there were a lot of BYs! Had such grea fun playing BYSMS. LOLX. And always is i spot de! LOLX.

It's not bout where you go, but who you go out with that makes it all worthwhile..

Was sick todae.. Dar came over to surprise me with soup and herbal tea. =] thkx dar...

Btw, yesterday tot sarah was mad at me but turned out she wasn't.. But got such a great shocked when she said "i don't wish to comment. It's getting riduculous". Dunno leh.. A bit confused.. I'm quite sure it was directed at me.. But she said it was not.. So nvm lahx. =]

*I'm a happy gal*

2007-07-15T20:25:00.000+08:00

Todae is officially sausage day!

Ate cheese hotdog, 2 big hotdogs from cold storage and a taiwan hotdog! YUM YUM~! There's always a reason why E cheese hotdog at E cinema taste better! The cheese prac ooze into ur mouth when u bite it and it's not as salty as the cold storage one so u won't grow sick of it! LOLx.

Went to Great World to watch Harry Potter! Ok.. The movie wasn't tat great... But i guess it's the people who watched it with u that makes it meaningful. =]

*i love wearing big brown coats*

Yesterday went over to study at ToFu's hse! =] Had fun studying and drinking tons of green tea.. Plus helping him choose clothes for the dinner he's going to.. Ok... I cant help but keep tinking how great he looks.. And it's great to know that his family don't hate me or anything.. lolx.

His brother's car rock! It's a black sports car which can really speed! OMG.. E feeling is so cool~! But it's very dangerous. LOLx.

ok.. I tink i'm going to be sick.. =[ shall drink more water..

2007-07-11T21:33:00.000+08:00

I thought band would never be that fun anymore. But today, i felt otherwise! I've never had so much fun~! With daniel as the conductor and clarence, cass and me as percussion players, music was neer as fun as b4!

Though we were like making noise, it came with rhythm and feel. We were trying to create "stories" with the sounds. IT'S SO FUN~!

I LOVE BAND

2007-07-07T19:55:00.000+08:00

Ok.. So i met his whole family...

I met his brother, sis, ah ma and maid long ago.

Yesterday, went to his hse to watch constantine and bleach. His dad came back unexpectedly. We were stunned. I only managed to say hello as he remained stunned. We practically froze.

As we were going to leave E hse, we heard a male's voice. His dad and mum were suppose to be at a dinner function already. When we walked out, we saw his uncle. And when he extended his hand, i gave him a firm handshake. LOLx.

Today, i met his mum at the bus stop and though he asked me to hide, i went out to greet his mother. LOLx. And i hope she have a good first impression of me or things would be pretty difficult in future.

I love magic tricks and i love eating ice lollies with u. Esp those with jelly in them. =]

2007-07-06T15:39:00.000+08:00

what a hectic week!
funny how love can be..
But somehow i tink E concept of love changes with time.
When i was younger, loving someone had been an easy task. But now, it comes with many consequences and responsibilities.
And as time goes by, one realises love does not get hurt that much if love is bittersweet. Sufficient sugar makes the coffee taste better compared to excessive sugar.
And maybe it's time to control my increasingly bad temper. =[ I'm a happy girl~

2007-06-23T10:01:00.000+08:00

I love takoyaki "pancakes"! LOLx. They taste fabulous!

Btw, i realise this trend.. A hairstyle of a person is very important... When u first met a stranger, the hairstyle of the stranger will make a big impact. So if the second time you see hm/her, the person might not recognise u at first glance if your hairstyle changes.

cool~!

SCHOOL IS REOPENING.. Is there even a holiday?! Haix.. Need to RUSH to finish my HMWK. oh wells..

I don't even know what do you want by asking me to do all these.. =( should i jz ignore you in future?

2007-06-20T09:25:00.000+08:00

It's not the amount of happiness you receive in a relationship that makes it long lasting. It's the abilities to solve problems and pick up the fallen pieces when things go wrong.

Complements matter. It makes people feel special and happy.

Happiness cannot be bought.. It can only be gained by gestures that can touch E heart and soul. Haix.. I've fallen deep enough to feel the pain...

2007-06-16T10:18:00.000+08:00

When things just don't go your way..

1. Don't get pissed off

2. Shut urself off from all the abuse and go into retreat

3. Psycho urself that things are going to be fine

4. Write all abuses on a piece of paper and tear it into shredds

5. Or just simply blog and type REALLY HARD so as to vent ur frustrations

Ok.. Maybe i'm not tat frustrated anymore. Ok.. Maybe i am... Have been bad tempered lately... Shan't socialise when i'm in a bad mood.

And remember: boyfriends and friends are not meant for u to dump your crap at

2007-06-15T20:29:00.001+08:00

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The eleven of us went to marina square today~! Then we met up with fanghui there. LOlx. Todae is a fun day!

2007-06-15T20:28:00.001+08:00

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2007-06-15T20:25:00.003+08:00

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Jen, me and zi ying

Had fun in the TOILET!

2007-06-15T20:25:00.001+08:00

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2007-06-15T20:24:00.001+08:00

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We had a nice lunch at the IMPERIAL KITCHEN~! Yum~! LOLx.

2007-06-15T20:22:00.001+08:00

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ELEVEN tickets in all! OMG. lolx. We went to watch FANTASTIC FOUR. JESSICA ALBA ROCKS! lolx. E movie is pretty nice too~!

2007-06-15T20:20:00.003+08:00

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fanghui's got serious sun burn.. OUCH~!

2007-06-15T20:20:00.001+08:00

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CHUBBY~!

2007-06-15T20:19:00.001+08:00

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WOAH~! Wad strong muscular arms! *shocked*

2007-06-15T20:18:00.003+08:00

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JEN JEN ZI LIAN!

2007-06-15T20:18:00.001+08:00

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FANGHUI~!

2007-06-15T20:17:00.001+08:00

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2007-06-15T20:16:00.003+08:00

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blurred~!

2007-06-15T20:16:00.001+08:00

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owwww~ don't grab my head fanghui!

2007-06-15T20:15:00.001+08:00

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Random pics on the way home~!

2007-06-11T21:56:00.001+08:00

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2007-06-11T21:42:00.001+08:00

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ChRiSpY tOfU

2007-06-11T21:39:00.001+08:00

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I LOVE SAKAE
todae went there to eat with tofu!
.::Soft shell crab::.
Oily and salty
BuT very CHRISPY
.::Lotsa sushi::.
Yum?
.::Bento set::.
There's so many EXOTIC food there! LOLX. Love E thrill~! And E taste.
.::Salmon Sashimi::.
WITH WASABI AND SOY SAUCE
It's as fresh and as swt as ever! LOVED IT AS MUCH AS BEFORE.
.::Tempura icecream::.
looks pretty ok but taste pretty good~! It's like fried cake on E outside and ice cream on E inside. YUM~!
#And i wouldn't wanna look at E bill...

2007-06-09T19:22:00.000+08:00

Father

someone who gives birth to you ONLY?

No.

Someone who loves you,

respects you,

communicates with you,

encourages you?

Yes.

Perhaps it's time to learn other means of communication with the ones you love..

Life is not sad..

It's the reaction that people give to life that makes it sad..

Once read something that says "10% is what happens to you. 90% is how you react to it. You can choose your own happiness or choose to throw it away"

OK. Maybe i shan't stay mad at E hurtful things i've heard.

Learn to forgive and forget?

2007-06-09T19:20:00.001+08:00

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"Tofu tofu, wad big hands you have!"
"All the better to slap you with my dear"

2007-06-09T19:19:00.001+08:00

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breakfast? That's french toast, scrambled eggs and cheese sausage for you! YUM~!

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2007-06-09T19:17:00.001+08:00

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CHRISPY TOFU~!

2007-06-09T19:16:00.001+08:00

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nice easter lily?

2007-06-08T08:14:00.000+08:00

It's a long time since i've blogged and now it's time to tell a love story..

"I've never liked JJC. I love E people and attitude there but i've never liked E school itself so it came as a shock when i transferred back to jjc from SAJC. Weird, isn't it? I joined E water games for E second intake students and was running around aith Ziying and loon yuan. At that point in time., i was attached and heartbroken over my first love. It was then when his friend drew his attention to me.

"Hey, that gal not bad right?"

He looked over and said, " Ya, not bad, i think she's my type."

But he decided not to brood over it since he THOUGHT he'll never see me again. Until his friend spotted me at the western food stall again. I had never liked that stall in JJ so that was one of E few times i went there to buy something. His friend kept nudging him but he did not reply. He was just queuing before me! I did not notice him yet but i could remember a guy who is nudging his friend and eyeing me at the same time. But i just ignored and walked away.

2 weeks later, a miracle happened.

I saw Huayning and Jiajun outside E band room. I was pretty shocked because they had never wanted to join band. I'd always wanted to join just that it's pretty weird if i join alone. We finally met when Huayning brought me into E band room. It turned out that he was in the same section as me and we even played alto saxophone one! I didn't realise he was blushing and all as we set out to make friends and talk about everything under the sun.

Sparks flew during the band camp when he tried to help me with the chairs. Before that, huayning, me and him spent E night talking to him and listening to his sad love story. we were already on very good terms but that act lighted E spark as he rest his hands on my shoulder and ask me to move aside so he could help. I was suspicious and didn't allow him to. He felt a bit hopeless since i kept saying that Zaewe (his friend in band) is very cute. *PS. He is VERY cute*

We had wanted to go out after E camp to spend E whole night out. But he thought i was joking and stuff and when he finally realise that i meant it and i wasn't going out with huayning and jiajun, i had already called my mum to pick me up. So we were both pretty upset.

we had wanted a section outing aft E camp but since kaya and huayning cant make me, we cancelled it as i didn't feel comfortable going out with a guy(not my bf) alone.

1st time he sent me home

He had wanted to go to gekpoh so we took E same bus. To tease him, i asked him to alight at E same stop as me and then walk to gekpoh since my hse is within walkin distance from gekpoh. He thought for awhile and said yes. It turned out that his 1st ex lived near me!

1st time we went to study (gave me my first present)

we went to study at his country club. He gave me a bottle of crysanthemum tea. YUM. When i left, i msg him "I tink i'm falling for you, lolx" to tease him and check for his reaction. when he didn't reply for very long, i sent another msg "i was only teasing you lah." but his reply was...

"huh.. I thought u meant it cuz i felt that way too"

"ok lahx. I wasn't teasing just now, meant it", i admitted.

steading

it was after a few days when he realised that admitted does not equal to steading. LOLX. He wanted to ask on E las day of april. But i preferred E first day of May. =]

I was pretty unstable at first cuz thou i liked him, he was too "motherly" for my liking then. And he dun play arcades and he only listens to instrumental music and he's he nice boy type. Fortunately, after a month, i realise he can play arcade, pool, drink.. BAD BOY TYPE. But he can be pretty nice. Especially when he cooks scrambled eggs, sausages, and french toast for you for breakfast. YUM. We were experimenting with french toast yesterday! And it turned out pretty fine!

SYF is over and all and now, it's time to buck up for my studies. Afterall, commontest is coming! And there's so much more to study.

However there mus still be some time for play! To meet up with old frenx!

*did i mention we got a silver for syf?*

oh ya.. And i'm the vice pres of E jjc band after an "interview" with E seniors and another "interview" with ms lim. =]

2007-05-06T21:48:00.000+08:00

A pink polo tee and a fabulous brown jacket. OMG. I didn't know he had TAT much dress sense. METROSEXUAL! omg. LOLX. But still, happy bdae to Chris-tofu!

I was playing this stupid game with him. It's like hide and seek and he gonna find his own prezzies. But he found me! OMG. Luckily i only left E last surprise if not so wasted. LOLX. I was like practically running all over the place?

SPIDER MAN WAS OK. lolx. Not as good as i had expected. =[

And i realise i still have E phobia for contact. ok.. So it felt good when i'm cold but other than that, i'm still pretty scared of contact.. I NEED MORE TIME! lolx.

I tink i can talk a lot wif him.. But will we become saturated one dae?

2007-04-29T20:44:00.000+08:00

I can't believe i felt so comfortable listening to him tok.. Though i get a little jittery when he's near.. Maybe it's cause of all E past bad experiences? I'm so afraid of a relationship but he's so nice and all...I cant help but jz smile.. lolx.. TOUFU! OMG.. And he act feels E same way bout me. LOLX. so that's called love? A kind of thing tat comes so naturally and occurs to 2 ppl who are suited for each other? Haix.. But i'm still scared.. We click so well tat i'm scared.. Cuz I WANNA GO FOR IT.. But i'm so friggin scared.. Shit...

SYF is coming! Shall work hard hard! LOLX. If SYF is coming, shows that june hol is coming and it means tat havoc time is coming! OMG.. I feel tat saturdays and sundays are over too soon. =[ I dun even feel tat i got a break! OMG. LOLx. And before E hol, i shall get back my study spirit! YEAH!!! And to get that spirit back, i shall start studying! YEAH! Never give up!

I love band outings.. =]

2007-04-22T17:46:00.000+08:00

Was i even that tired? It's been so long since i've stopped waking up in the middle of the night. And i even took a nap just now.. OH NO! I'm turning into a sleepy pig?

I've just came back from band camp last night. IT WAS FANTASTIC. Very unlike CSS band camps. The band camp there was more relaxed? And more fun! We watch a very cool movie and played bridge til 3am in the morning. Then me and Huay Ning talked to Christofle and mike (and rabbit) til very late. I love playing bridge with huayning, christofle and rabbit! LOLX. And rabbit is SO CUTE! LOLx.

The food was fantastic. canadian pizzas, KFC, roti prata. OMG. Christofle really know how to pamper the band. And last night, we played the number game. Luckily Christofle was before me and he was damn unlucky so he kept drinking the disgusting conoction as he kept guessing E number that was set. LOLX.

I love sleeping time! There's air con and i was sleeping damn peacefully. LOLX. Just that i woke up at bout 6am and went to the toilet alone as Huayning was sleeping too soundly to be awoken. It's not that creept though. LOLX.

I GONNA PRACTISE HARDER! I WANNA DEPEND ON CHRISTOFLE NO MORE! Felt so helpless without him helping me play some parts. Where's that fighting spirit of mine? Shall make E best out of the SYF!

Phototaking was SHOCKING. Alex pushed my head down.. O_0" And i cant see my face in the candid pic? lol. And we were egging christofle to sit with G. lolx. But he ended up beside me lahx. So sad. Shall try harder next time. =}

Anyway, good luck to christofle cuz perhaps G likes him? lolx. He was damn freaked out. So farni.

GONNA GO STUDY LE. lookin forward to monday cuz it's MOVIE day. lolx. tata.

2007-04-15T10:16:00.000+08:00

Ok.. That kitty next door ate my lovely flowers.. But what can i do? I love animals more than flowers... *frowns* And if i tell E next door auntie, i cant see that cute kitty anymore! SOBX!

I quarrelled with my mum 2 days ogo and now ok le. So fast. But actually i'm still kinda pissed but i cant ignore her when she talks to me right? *shakes head* Just cant stay mad when others make E first move.

And i love hanging out with sarah and evan! Yest, after my stupid band prac with an insulting conductor and after their councillor meeting, we went to westmall, ate pasta mania and made a badge with our pic. LOLX. It looks pretty nice~! yay.. Then we went to bobo's hse and slack. I LOVE BUBBLE GUMS AND FORTUNE TELLING. It turns out that i meant something to that someone i like. It's been such a long time since i actually felt that kind of feeling le. That kind of stoning feel when he looks right at me and that kind of heart thumping feeling when he's close and near. Oh my goodness. But it's ok. As long as i meant something, i don't have to be with him. And i know i can never be with me. So i'll just wait quietly? =]

I LOVE e MOVIE "BRING IT ON"! And all of a sudden i felt left out.. Cuz i really wanna join cheerleading but there's no vacancy. Plus, evan and sarah are in cheerleading and stuff.. Somehow i felt kinda weird. But it's ok..

AND CSS GOT A GOLD DURING SYF! The judges were damn strict bout it lor. Even yu hua sec did not get gold with honours this year. That mean CSS is comparable with E gd band le. And with the strict judging, i tink JJ die lioax. *shake head*

And NGEE ANN POLY sounds pretty fun.. Their camps are so damn cool! I wish i can organise a camp too! Zi ying was like telling me her experiences last night. LOLX. The NIGHTWALK was damn freaky. I would have been scared if i had to do it. LOLX.

And seha came bac to jj tat day to watch E soccer match. I saw a lot of ppl like jia qi and june too. =]

btw, jen lost her HP.. Haix. Then i saw her cried for E first time.. Haix.. She's so strong. She never wears her sadness on her sleeve. Haix.. I WANNA BE LIKE HER!

2007-03-29T20:42:00.000+08:00

Music really makes my world go round. Now i finally know i cant survive without music.. LOLx. And it's like E only thing that can make me truly happy without E aid of others... YAY! So the problem now is to make JJ band become a gold band... This could be hard... Considering the lack of motivation of the band. There's practically no sense of urgency...

I HATE ANYONE WHO INSULTS CMB OR MR TAN. watch it.. Haix.. I missed CMB.. thou i feel happy with music, i feel betta with cmb.. At least i noe E ppl there are much more motivated and there is a pushing force... And there's directions! i miss cmb so badly...

PRAC, PRAC, PRAC!

one of my classmates have hyperventilation today.. But he's recovering from it le. So it's ok. But it's damn worrying i guess.. If i was there's i don't even noe how to react.

I fought with LY again. I cant stand it le.. I really cant. Ignorance.. When a gal says "I'm already getting used to life without u" to a guy who "likes" her, imagine how E gal will feel when E guy says "Good tat u are getting used to it. Cuz i cant be theer for u all E time. You shd learn to be independent of me." It was like a slap on my face.. And i'm damn MAD.

Haix.. guess it's time to do hmwk le...

2007-03-27T17:57:00.000+08:00

Scorpios tend to search for the perfect partner.. I guess i'm a scorpio who is actually imagining my owbn perfect person, trying to match dreams with reality. In my mind, i unconsciously psychoed myself to believe a certain someone is great but when i'm met with the truth, everything falls back into place again...

Everything tastes SO BLAND! It's so gross.. ewwwwww... And i missed tennis try outs today! GOODNESS.... I'm regretting like hell...

I guess everyone feels lonely sometimes.. I just tend to get more lonely than others. It's time to find my own happiness instead of relying on others.. And it's time to learn that imperfections are GREAT.

It's always time to study! OoPs.. I'm so random.. CHEEROS!

I missed the feeling of being happy with you...

2007-03-25T08:12:00.000+08:00

遥望着你背影

有孤单太苍白

我多么想陪着你

走过人山人海

当天空变灰白

你的忧伤澎湃

我多么想走进你

紧锁的心海

我一直都在你身后等待

等你有一天回过头看我

我的笑送给你希望你快乐

你的难过都给我

关于你的一切我都

好好收藏着

等你有一天能感觉到我

就算我在你世界

渺小像一颗尘埃

我也会给你我所有的光和热

我鼓起勇气呐喊

你要听得见

我不许你再孤单

要你拥抱我给的温暖

This song is so nice~!

Went to eat ZINGER burger with Ziying yesterday! Yum yum~! But my muscles are aching like mad as i accompany zi ying to NP to buy laptop. LOLX.

So touched last night! MY "DADDY'S" GREAT! Instead of feeling bothered by my constant questioning, he said he feels guilty for not able to help him cuz he's always busy. LOLX.

I LOVE BANANAS!

woke up this morning feeling so creeped out as E memory at THAT night came flowing back.. I HATE E feeling of being "touched" and consoled by that someone.. HAIX. Instant repel. GOSH. Should have leaped off E floor there and then.. Now have phobia le.. *shakes head*

I NEED TO GET INTO e MOOD OF STUDYING!

And there's this poor friend of mine who is going to lose someone that meant something to her.. Haix.. I can't help but get worried bout her and hope she can be happy again..

*P.S If anyone know where to find songs to put inside E blog, can tell me pls? Thkx!

2007-03-22T20:07:00.000+08:00

http://www2.uma.maine.edu/SusanBaker/nucleus_endo.swf

Not wanting to lose this valuable piece of biology information, i've decided to put it in my blog! LOLX.

I guess love was not in the air afterall.. I think my friend's relationship is falling apart.. And both parties are pretty upset. Haix. Really hope they can work out great. They look pretty cute together!

TENNIS.

I was so stunned! LY is like so talented at sports! Though he runs like a girl and that pissed me off, he's badminton and tennis skills are shocking. I just learnt tennis today and once again, he is my teacher! Just like when he taught me badminton skills. LOLX. Can't believe that i'm being trained by a NOOB. He can whack very well~ LOLX. I was marvelling at his strength. I have even lesser strength than JEN! LOLX. I know LY was going easier on me as compared to Jen cuz i saw the red mark the ball left on Jen's thigh when she played with LY. SCARY.

And i bought myself a HOT PINK ITEM. LOLX. And i'm darn proud of it~ It really cheered me up! And i'm not gonna emo again!

SYF is coming.. I hope my juniors can play well~! *^_^* And i'm gonna watch the performance for sure and see their hard work pay off! GAMBATTE!

And perhaps i should get a tennis racket. A white one with red strings don't sound bad at all. LOLX.

And a happy bade to li xuan and pamela!!!

2007-03-20T17:25:00.000+08:00

it's been so long since i've penned... and throughout this time, i've been in a 2 week relationship, tried a cocktail called sex on the beach, learnt majong, rode on an elephant and a horse, took a piture with a snake, went to a'famosa to try out the slides, bought tons of malacca choc, became "the pea princess" in a bird show, got into sajc and know a good fren, appealed back to jj, went to a chalet, ate a very nice plate of noodles which i'll reccommend to all, and lastly, missed everyone who left jj...

How i missed those good times.. Even my former classmates and i were separated. But i got to know i really gentle girl.

She's much more gentle than me. I was never gentle. I'm the noisy and rowdy girl who does not have a good figure nor a pretty face. But never once have i seen someone so gentle. Even when she's scolding "wa lau", she sounded so gentle. GENTLE is the ONLY word to describe her. Now i noe why i never had suitors.

I've been searching what true love means... Everlasting care? compromising?Or is it jz a special feeling 2 ppl have? I watched this taiwanese show called " wang zi bian qing wa" and i feel that love is a special thing. I've felt it strongly once.. And i know i'll never forget the taste of love.. But can someone really make me wanna lose my freedom and stick to him 4 ever? I wouldn't dare to dream of it cuz i'm never gentle.

Don't all guys like gentle gals? Will a guy like a noisy gal who likes to rara and crack jokes and speak in an uncouth way? I guess i wanna be gentle but i just haven't met someone who'll make me go all soft and small.. But it's ok i guess.. Being single's great. No worries, No problems, and No waste of time.

Though it gets lonely sometimes...

But there's always frenx!

And cheers to my social life. *smiles*

Frenx are the best remedy for sadness and lonliness..

2007-02-20T16:36:00.000+08:00

Can't believe i didn't blog for such a long time. So dui bu qi zi ji. Just returned from malaysia after celebration chinese new year. It was great fun! And all the rest was food and stuff. And i'm really glad i'm starting to bond with some of my cousins. Hahax. And i was constantly playing dai di and i suck at it! I guess. Hahax. Luckily we didn't gamble if not i sure lose a lot of money! And the electricity went off last night so we gotta wait for E electricity to return. So most of us went out to the front porch to wait and i was walking around to prevent mosquito bites. *smiles* The night sky was beautiful! But not as beautiful as it was before. But nevertheless, i tink i saw a shooting star. Maybe i'm dreaming? The best part of the chinese new year is that EVERYTHING is so YUMMY! Hahahax.

The o level results were pretty good! Though i thought i could have done better. Thankx to the moderation! hehex. And i hope i can get into SAJC.. E sch uniform there is so NICE! Hahax. And i even got some cash rewards!

Valentine's day was awesome. 2 bouquet of roses and a bowl of udon and 3 bowling games. Not bad though it wasn't tat romantic. HAhax. I just love to eat! I think i spent most of my rewards on food like sakae and pepper lunch and bowling! That dae, loon yuan, doris, ernest and i went out and i ate both sakae and pepper lunch on E same day! hahax. YUMMY!

But there's another chem test and bio test coming right up.. STRESSED again..

would you mind a dark future with someone who'll make u happy? or would u want a bright future with someone who will make u unhappy?

2007-02-04T09:58:00.000+08:00

i like to look at the clouds drift past while lying on a falt grassland and taking in the scents of fresh grass and blooms.. Or gazing at the stars twinkling in the nightsky, like rare gems and jewels.. But that evening, i realise i couldn't communicate with u bout the clouds nor E stars.. I never saw E heart shapes.. Instead i saw a fish being cooked in a pan. (=_=") and slowly, i start to fall asleep.. And when i gazed at the stars, i had nothing to sae for it wasn't E starry sky i had seen b4... I had seen a much more beautiful sky back in malaysia when i was still in love with my source of pain... Will you still like me if i told u i couldn't share E clouds and stars with you? Or will you even dare to say you like me b4 acting like you did? I never wanna ask anymore..

Maybe i'm just paranoid..

Love fiesta was kinda fun.. With all the rides and all.. My stall finished seling E stuff except E donuts. Some was left. But at least there were profits and that alone calls a need for a celebration~! And i went on a lot of rides! E same ride for 2 times.. It gave me a feeling when i was on the pirate's ship.. That same queasy feeling in the stomach . Hahax.. Also, i got bruises cuz of that stupid ride cuz i was flying all over. Hahahax.. The carnival was damn EXPENSIVE but really fun and all. And thru this event, i really bond with my class mates.. Hahax. Which was great! I though we would never bond due to E political fights. =}

AND, YES, I LIKE FLOWERS. Hahax.. LY was like stupidly asking me if i wan them.. =_=" You don't ask ppl like tat! But anyway, i got a rose for myself. Hahax.. I love flowers so... DUMMY.

I ended E day on the track near E synthetic field. We were cloud-cum-star gazing. Hahahax. Then carine touched fang hui's upper thigh and saed it was very fair and smooth and fang hui raised a commotion. Soon, jen joined in the fun and after that i joined in E cat fight. Hahax.. It was so cute!

I saw so many ppl i tot i would never see again.. Wan qing.. Hui shin.. Ying li.. sarah.. en ling.. adeline.. cheryl.. shi tien.. benjamin... And so many others! Goodness.. How i missed em so.. Hahahax..

And i love being an usher.. So sad there wasn't a mass dance as promised. Hahax..

OOPS.. I let my thoughts fly around again. Hahax. So messy...

GTG le.. going out with sarah they all. And her bdae is yest! Happy bdae da jie!

2007-01-22T20:20:00.000+08:00

OMG.. I've been a nuisance again! Haix.. And in the end, things end up the way I didn't imagine... And all along it was this stupid arguement.. In the end, we start off where we left.. Which was a BONUS! I thought things would end with us being enemies considered how upset i was and in the end, we talked it over.. I didn't noe he can invert E whole situation, making me gawk in awe and somewhat frightened.. But all was well...

AND THERE GOES MY ICE CREAM.

If i hadn't been moody, tat inch of fat wouldn't have came knocking at my waist. -_-" OK.. I'm a glutton. Hahax. Cuz i'm moody! And playing with Zi ying at the swing was cool lorx! And super moody. Hahax.

Then yest i went to zi ying's hse oso and she gave me a pink top. OMG. i love it lorx! Gonna wear tis sat go OG outing and stun everyone. Hahahahax..

Not moody le thkx to my super fren who managed to turn things all over. Hahax.. Yay! Life rocks!

2007-01-20T21:41:00.000+08:00

I felt so miserable all of a sudden when i'm told i have to leave E BBQ and go home. I didn't wanna leave and as soon as i did that, i missed my friends. I never knew i cant have that kind of feeling again and i really missed them. When Fang hui, Jen, zi ying and bobo sent me all E way to my dad's car, i felt so honoured to have such friends. And once again, it hurts me so when i know they're sure to leave me after E first 3 mths. They are so dear to me, all my OG frenz. And nevertheless, i loved them so...

We played E card games and i thought of many disgusting forfeits. I'm E WITCH of E group as i plot out all the terrible things people have to do as forfeit. Fropm touching another guy's smooth legs to feeding another person, E game brought endless laughter and fun! HAHAHAX. We even tried extreme gourmet by mixing up E food. HAHAHAX. That was gross but truly fascinating..

And in E morning, i met chin how for brunch b4 hitting E arcade. Zi ying came shortly after and i tried to play dancing steps with chin how. I danced like a NOOB. But nevertheless, i felt so happy. Chin how and i were waiting for combo one at long john silver cuz when we reached there, only breakfast was available. Hahax.. I realised that 2 can have heart to heart talks but 3 can really create E laughter.

He BBQ was great fun! We fed each other and ate burnt food. Hahax.. LEONARD IS GOOD AT BBQ. His chicken wings are fab! Hahax.. And bobo like to stick packets of chilli sauce on his face. Hahax. He's so cute! E guys damn man lor! They set up E fire. Hahahahahahahahax. I really like my OG!!!

And i'm gonna design E OG tee! OMG. This is E first time i'm designing a shirt for someone to wear lor. Hahax. And i'm just about to own my first designed striped shirt. YIPEE! And of course, leonard is helping me with the design! hahax. I really like my OG~! (how many times have i said that?)

ok lah! GTG rest le. Tml still gotta do hmwk. Hahahax. tata.. And good nitex!

2007-01-18T19:56:00.001+08:00

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The 7 of us went to watch death note 2 yest! It was fab! Hahahahax.. Even better than death note one. MISA IS DAMN PRETTY! But damn stupid too! Hahaax.. OMG.. And i love ryuk! He's E most uprighteous shinigami! Yay!
Must thk zi ying cuz she lent me $5 so i can eat caramel popcorn! Hahax... And must thk chin how for lending me money to watch E movie. YAY!
YESTERDAY WAS FUN!

2007-01-18T19:53:00.001+08:00

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2007-01-13T08:22:00.000+08:00

I don't know why but everytime i get so happy when he smiled, so upset when he mentioned THE gal, and so worried when he feels umcomfortable. And even when i'm mad, after seeing his smile, my anger evaporated. I felt so happy and comfortable when we chat bout things and he looked so handsome though i know i'll never admit it.. Oh No. Wad is this?!

Went back to CMB yest! Then i took sectionals since ting ting, xin yi, edward and you jing all not there. Only left rafiq, lee ling, azril and charlotte. The sectonals was fun! We didn't actually played through the piece but we worked on the details and we perfected a page of music! IF they remembered to play like they did yesterday. I was so happy for them. And Azril sound so macho when he put in a lot of air into his instru. OMG!!! Hahax. And he's improving lor. Felt so touched when they asked me to go back again and motivate em and stuff. Hahax. They can play well if they tried!

But i felt really down lor! when Ivan scolded the band. But i felt like a part of the band again.. I really felt so upset. Not angry.. But worried and sad. It's so heart-clenching! Haix... But i still believe in motivating em.. I hope this 2-prong apprach is gonna work. Hahax.. And i hope they'll really get a gold for SYF!!!

I dunno why but i felt a pang of sadness when i saw her.. Afterall, she caused me much pain. Not that i hate her.. But i felt really upset. HAhax.. But i guess it's all over and i'm finally able to let it all go! Except for that tini weeny part.. Just gotta learn to face her again... From her sec 1 til now, i've never been able to face her.. SO I MUS GAMBATTE!

OMG.. He's so shuai...

2007-01-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

would you choose to have fun but experience sadness or would you keep your happiness and just don't have fun?

I chose the latter..

Today had so much fun playing truth or dare. HAHAHAHA. Pure bliss! And i love ice blended mocha with whipped cream. Hahax.

2007-01-10T21:18:00.000+08:00

It's a wonder what happiness can do to someone~ I remember seeing myself all pale and awful when i first entered E school, totally heartbroken by E misfortunes that befell me. And now, it's all bubbly and smiles and a radiant glow. Hahax. I love my OG mates and I missed all my Sec sch frenx!

That day i went back to CSS to sell E JJC carnival tickets and i realised i missed my teachers. I talked to Ms janet tay for very long and i realise she can never be replaced.. Haix. I really tink she's a very good Friend-teacher. Haix...

And when i listened to the lectures, i missed my teachers instantly... Those teachers that made me feel so secure and safe that all will be well.. I'm so used to their teaching methods. Haix. And now, i'm lost in the midst of lectures and a confusing life. Haix. Now then i realise my sec sch chers meant so much to me.

But i met a lot of nice ppl. Guys who would just treat u and be all gentlemanly. I'm surprised such guys actually exist.. hahax.

Todae, I tried out a lot of CCAs. Hahax. Cuz it's CCA DAY! I cant play squash for nuts and though i sort of can pass at air rifle, it wasn't fantastic. Hahax. And tat rife is so heavy! And you gotta load a bullet at a time! So ma fan. Then dance try out was crazy! It was all stretching and stuff! It felt like yoga though. Hahax. I like modern dance but not CHINESE DANCE.

And we dedicated a song to our OGLs todae. Though no one really heard it. Hahax. So sad!

PC was great! I've grown a lot more muscular. Hahax. Yay~!

LIFE IS GREAT.

2007-01-08T19:47:00.000+08:00

look carefully! It's the helium filled balloons tat were left at the hall after the JJ night. Very nice!

2007-01-08T19:46:00.000+08:00

That's the present our OGL gave us! VERY nice lorx! I love it! It's a jig saw puzzle with wishes at the back of every piece for everyone!

2007-01-08T19:44:00.001+08:00

FUNNY FACES!

2007-01-08T19:44:00.000+08:00

Yay~! That's xin yu beside me! Another one of my OGL! she was the caring one who lent ziying her sleeping bag tat day! So nice!

2007-01-08T19:42:00.000+08:00

That's nilawan, wute, ziying and me! Wu te is another one of my OGL. She's very brainy de. Hahax. And she can get very high oso. Hahax..

2007-01-08T19:41:00.001+08:00

That's me and seha! She still look very sexy right? Hahax.

2007-01-08T19:41:00.000+08:00

That's chin hua and me! He's a commonwealthian! Hahax. And he's really easy to talk to! He's one of my OGL~!

2007-01-08T19:40:00.000+08:00

ziying and me! Hahax.. Her glasses very nice. Pink pink de. Hahax.

2007-01-08T19:39:00.000+08:00

This is me and cheryl! She can get very high during E cheers. hahax.

2007-01-08T19:38:00.000+08:00

that's me and jenmey! She very kawaii right? Hahax.

2007-01-08T19:37:00.000+08:00

that's me and kai sim! We call her happy(kai xing)!

2007-01-08T19:36:00.000+08:00

This is my OG group members. Some of em~ The guy is loon yuan and jenmey is eating lollipop! and that's nilawan in yellow!

2007-01-06T19:35:00.000+08:00

JJC camp was so fun! I love my OGLs (orientation group leaders)! They are great!

I never knew a camp can be so fun! Although E school is old and the structure of the buildings and toilets are weird, i enjoyed it a whole lot! Hahax. And E water even stopped coming when i was half way through my bath for the first night! Then i had to squeeze E soap out of my hair and wait for the water to come!

I have the best OG mates! They were great! Even E guys are great! Except for one who is really scary! Who would like someone who grabs girls very roughly and keep poking their butts with his shoe? If is accidently is ok lor. But 3-4 times within an hr is too much rite? My OG mates are so nice to talk too! And even little things like who like who can keep us talking for days!

And i met Jenmey! Sihui's pri sch fren. She's really nice! I like her company and all~ It's really easy to talk to her. I felt all girly again~ We were like discussing the guy's leg hair at night. Hahax. And i was so touched when she thked me during one of E emotional sessions. We're suppose to thk a person from each group lorx.

The dancing was great and really fun! JJ night was way too cool~! I felt so free and so emotional! All the songs make me wanna cry but i held back. JJ night was all fun, sweat and tears. And lun yuan damn nice lor. He very gentlemanly. Hahax. Got one movement is guy mus put his hands on E gal's waist de. All E guys took adv of E gals lor. But he never. HAHAX. I felt so free when i dance! And christina, one of E councillors, is really good at dancing!

The water games was so ewwwww at first and so wow at last~! It's all soap,water, dough, sweat and fun! Hahax. E dough like sticking on to jenmey's hair lorx! Hahax. I love water bombs!!! And cheering session was like crazy! I love it like hell!

For E second night, we all slept in E hall mahx den it's after JJ night so got a lot of helium filled balloons at E ceilling lor. Then at night they flosted around den finally came down. Hahax. The sight was pretty! Though a balloon bumped into my head and woke me up.. *shake head* But E air con at the hall made it so easy to fall asleep!

OH NO! so madly in love with camp! E OGLs all so caring. Zi ying lost her slping bag on E first day lorx. Den one of E OG lent her her slping bag. Then the OGLs never slp for the 2 nights lor! And they always like let us eat first and cater to our needs. They also let us bathe first lor. Not only are they damn caring, they're really nice to talk to!!! And leonard(OGL) was so good at telling lame jokes and GHOST STORIES. OMG... We were like listening to him at mos burger(JP). We having OG lunch mahx. Den he kena cheated when he bought a burger with no bread. Hahax. He got one of those veggie ones. Damn funny lorx.

Chin hua(OGL) from CSS de so really very nice to talk to. Though he like spend very little time with us cuz he's food attach, he really very nice sia! And he gave me a "lyoe feeling". Hahax. I think he look like lyoe lorx!

Wu te(OGL) like lame jokes too! Some of her jokes damn funny! Love it man!

Very little interaction with xin yu(OGL) but she very caring! She was the one who lent her sleeping bag to ZI ying!

Bobo(OGL) very funny! He is tat kind like shy shy at first but very fun when he sort of get hyper. Hahax. Then he looks like he's very active de. Hahax.He very thin lorx!

Though i met so many new frenx, i still missed my old ones.. Haix.. Really hope can see em soon...

I LOVE e CAMP!

2007-01-01T17:44:00.000+08:00

San jie, er jie and my whole famly went to the countdown near E merlion. And we can see the esplanade! The night view was lovely. But the irritating thing was the crowd! And E fireworks that was released during national day was better than this one! I just don't like to get touched here and there by strangers. Especially strangers who pushed! Suddenly, i felt like sitting some where high where i can look at the crowd, feel the night breeze, view the wonderful night scenery and sip a glass of red wine.. Pure luxury. That would have better than the pushing crowd!

Ever wonder how 7 people can fit into a car with only 5 seats? It's really cool~ And i was surprised we survived it. Hahax.

We went to lao pa sat for dinner. I love japanese cuisine! Hahax.. YUMMY!

At the morning, san jie and me went to a church service with my sis and after that, we went to a picnic with her cell group. It was fun! I got to know a lot of people and they're really fun! Hahax. We played frisbee and fruity ball and captain's ball.. It was great!

Happy new year to all~!

2006-12-30T17:38:00.000+08:00

She tried to run away from her awful past, abandoning all the pain and all those that brought her memories.. Until she rammed into a spikey bush and laid there... Dead.

I've had a fever! Oh no.. I think if this goes on, i'll become an idiot someday. Hahax.

Yesterday, i went shopping with one of my cousin! Sh'es very cool and has a really good fashion sense. There's a lot of sales at vivo. So so helped me chose a top from ZARA. Hahax. I love it! If not for her fashion advice, i would have taken E pink top instead of E orangey yellow one. Hahax. Her taste is really good. If i hadn't been feeling awful, i would have went into ultra shopping mode. Hahax. I love E sales!

I guess i'm gonna get some advice on getting a good night's rest. I never seem to be able to sleep well no matter how tired i am. Psychological prob? Hahax. But i guess i'm getting better! YAY!

time to watch bleach again!

2006-12-30T17:30:00.000+08:00

She tried to run away from her awful past, abandoning all the pain and all those that brought her memories.. Until she rammed into a spikey bush and laid there... Dead.

I've had a fever! Oh no.. I think if this goes on, i'll become an idiot someday. Hahax.

I guess i'm gonna get some advice on getting a good night's rest. I never seem to be able to sleep well no matter how tired i am. Psychological prob? Hahax. But i guess i'm getting better! YAY!

time to watch bleach again!

2006-12-28T08:59:00.000+08:00

Lonely~ I am so lonely~ I have nobody~ lalalax

But lonely's fine. As long as there's no agony involved. Phew.

I finally painted my room! Revamp! Make over. Mwahahax. Feeling so proud of myself. E colours are bold. And there's no colour called hot pink in te pain industry. The guy was like thinking i was mad when i kept asking for it. But Anyway, i got something called majestic smth. It looks like red but it looks like hot pink. Somewhat that colour so it's pretty bold. Hahax. Then i chose barley white too. Though it's not white too. It's like orangey? Hahax. But anyway, the room turned out fine. Just fine. I wouldn't wanna turn my room into a pig's den again!

Long live the bangladesh people! You won't know how hard it is to paint til you've tried it. Not only do u have to climb here and there like a monkey, you gotta get precision and a little error is gonna be noticed very easily. And you gonna make sure E paint is evenly spreaded if not you'll get patches of diff shades. And you arms, hands and legs are gonna hurt. It took me 2 days! NOT BAD!Hahax.. But now i'm suffering.. Limbs are weak. But i love it!

I never knew blogging and listening to music are made for each other! i love this so much! Hahax.

~~suppose to have secton outing but a lot of ppl cannot make it...~~

2006-12-22T20:15:00.000+08:00

The moment i saw C, i sat frozen. I tried to smile and say hi but C just walked past cooly. For a second, it felt like E day we were caught on the stairs---scared and confused. Then i felt nervous and sad. I felt like crying. And before i cried, i felt happiness radiating from me. God had granted my wish. God had seen me dreaming for days and weeks and finally, God had allowed me to see C.. I felt loved and happy. Though it didn't last and i probably don't matter to C, but i'm happy.

God loves me.

And it's time to repay God for i never deserved E kindness. It's time to be kind to all. God takes away things from you to make you sad and unhappy. But in return, God gives you much happiness. I was never a follower. But i believed there's God for he granted my heart's only desire and gave me the best christmas gift ever.

And God gave me a fren who told me that i was special and wanted. And God have me another fren who helps me with my problems though i am greatly worried for her own welfare. And God gave me another fren, who is now in China, who taught me the ways to be nice and to be accepted. God is great, isn't he?

Went out with Seha todae! It was great fun! We went shopping until my feet were aching and then we went to esplanade. It's been a long time since i went there. I loved every minute of it. It brought bac a lot of memories which filled my empty heart once again. And ACJC choir is singing christmas carols there. Hahax. I loved listening to em. Hahax. They're pretty good! Even the view from E roof top is cool~! And for a sec, i rmb that night. Seha and I wrote our wishes on this white ball and i hope our wishes will come true. Hahax. I would have written smth diff if there's not so many ppl behind me. We were sort of alone when we approached E stands but as we were writing, A LOT of ppl came. Hahax. We have sexy butts? Ice cream was great! Hahax.

And gals! Check out E road shows at orchard MRT station. There's tons of freebies that are pretty useful. Hahax. Women's weekly offers really good things. LOREAL PRODUCTS! Hahax.

**All i want for christmas is you~!

2006-12-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

Ever seen a person lick the small pieces of vegetable out of a big nugget and throwing it away? Try watching sarah eat.

Todae i went shopping again! With sarah and her cousin, elise. It was fun! Hahax. Though i was pretty worn out.

Christmas is coming! Hehex. And i hope it won't be a lonely christmas! Hahax.. I guess i can communicate better with the ppl i noe. Cuz i'm slowly starting toget use to elise's accent. Hahax...

Trying on clothes just for fun is getting better! Hahax. I love it! Esp when u go in grps and E sales person won't eye you like you're a pest or something. Hahax.

I'm finally feeling better? I guess...

2006-12-19T12:18:00.000+08:00

Rainy days are just so lovely you can never tell E time~! It feels as though i'm at genting with this cooling weather and my mood is fab~ Who likes to wake up feeling parched and warm? Hehex. This rain is going to last for 3 days! Yea! But it's gonna be over tml.. Hmmmm...

It's time to enter a new life with the lightest hearts and a joyous soul. Afterall, it's time to throw away the bad things that has been cursing my life.

Sort of regretted hanging on for so long and experiencing all the negative sides.. If i had just left earlier, there might have been more happy memories to remember...

Rain rain come again...

BLEACH IS FAB~!

2006-12-14T08:55:00.000+08:00

These few days was pretty fun! Hehex. But i miss DORIS! She left when i was still in MALAYSIA. SOBX. But nevermind, it's not like she's not coming back, right? I hope she brings back A LOT OF of CHINA stuff. hahax.

2 days back, Me and sarah when to orchard with her cousin(elise) and her cousin's fren(ema). They are both from australia. Ema is a pure australian i guess. Hahax. And i had trouble understanding their slang. I couldn't catch anything at all! So i was pretty quiet. We went shopping and all. It was fun! But i didn't really see anything i really liked. What a pity. But i loved E KFC set meal. It has a burger, a box of popcorn chicken and a drumstick with a cup of drinks. IT'S NICE. Hahax. But everything is pretty small. It doesn't look as big as it does on TV.

Anyway, yesterday, the four of us went to escape and hui en came too! Hahax. It was fun. $6 with ree ice cream and free candy floss and a free carnival game. We went into the haunted hse for our first game. I thought there will be things grabbing us but actually, it's all mechanised. It's all machines and it's not really that bad. There's a cofin which doesn't even open. Hahax. But i was pretty shaken anyway.

Then we went to play the bumper boats and we got all wet! For every group, one person is bound to get left behind and cant return to "shore". For our group, it was ELISE. hahax. We were pretty drenched as we settled down for lunch at burger king/orange julius. That place was packed. Hahax.

After that, we waited an hour for the go-kart. Hahax. But it was worth while. I was the first to go and i drove pretty fast though i was screaming away when i was going down E slope. So i went for 3 rounds cuz i arrived too early or perhaps the guy sort of forgot that i went past once le. Hahax. Then sarah got stuck at the slope and only got to go for one round. So i guess i drove her one round for her.

Then we went to have a ride in the pirate's ship. Though we are nopt able to sit at the back of the ship, we sat near the middle and i already have a lurching feeling feeling in my stomach. Hahax. But it was pretty fun!

Then we went on the roller coaster which was pretty ok. It's just that i kept sliding around in my seat. Hahax.

There's another ride called the rainbow. It was fun! It's like swing high up into the air. It looks creepy but it's totally fab! Hahax. I enjoyed it the most. But sarah's afraid of going on it. So she sort of missed the fun.. But actually, it's not that frightening. We were just screaming for fun.

And there was the carnival games. Hahax. Ema won a blue tiger. ROAR. Hahax. It was cute! The games where pretty fun~!

And there was the rain which kept coming down. The ride have to be cancelled. Haix. So we didn't get to try out EVERYTHING. Hahax. But nevertheless, i'm going again with my cousins. Hahax.

And today, it's time to laze around at home!

2006-12-10T16:51:00.000+08:00

I'm back and definately happier! Hahax..

~~1st day~~

My cousin, er jie, was bathing E dog when we arrived. And after that, wen the dog was left to dry in the sun, it kept rolling and rolling on the grass as though it had gone mad. Hahax.. So it's like it all dirty again. But it dries up faster that way. Hahax.. Then er jie and i cut his fur.. The end result wasn't so good. And he was whining.. Haix.. And he hates me.. SOB.. Time to buy him treats. It's also the night then we are all celebrating my uncle's bdae! Hahax.. It's very cool~ We went to this restaurant where it's famous for it's duck. It's wrapped in pao with cucumber and a special kind of sauce. YUMMY! Hahax. And there's scallop and all. I LOVE IT! I wouldn't mind eating it all over and over again!

One of my cousin's, san jie, gave me her top. It has a "miss cindy" print with some flowers and jewels. I love it! But it's kinda mocking me.. And i simply adore E cutting! YAY!

Had bad dreams E whole night.. Full of vulgarities and heart breaks and all.. Maybe it's that top's effect on me or whatever. But i woke up again and again, dreaming of the terrible things.. Sick..

~~2nd day~~

Had black noodles for breakfast! YUM! Growing fatter as every minute flew past. Hahax.. And that day, i bought a bubble short! It's like a bubble skirt but it's in the form of shorts! But it's really very SHORT. Hahax.. But i loved it all the same!

My cousins and I prepared for BBQ! It was lovely. We went to buy E BBQ food from a shop. It's all in frozen form, even E marinated chicken. And E cashier accidently dropped it, producing a loud "thud". It showed how frozen that thing is----- it could kill a cow.

BBQ was great. Though i cant really make sure if E chicken is cooked or not. Hahax.. But i made sure of one thing----Ah hao (one of my cousin) is as bad as me. Hahax. He burnt his food. And that night, i dreamt of my grandpa. It was not all that sad of anything.. Just a bit werd. Hahax.. Must be due to my wild imagination.

Anyway, san jie gave me another wallet. It's cool! Her taste rock! Hahax. I love it tons. And she gave that to me for a secret reason. Hahax.

~~3rd day~~

It was bright and sunny and we were packing to go home. But before that, my cousins and i were browsing through fashion magazine!Hahax.. I saw a few pretty clothing! How i wish i can get my hands on them.. Haix.. I love E herbal tea my auntie cooks. It's VERY delicious. Hahax. And she's been growing a herb garden of smth liddat. SO COOL.

ANYWAY, THAT'S THE END OF MY 3 DAY 2 NIGHT MALAYSIA "CAMP".

Time to seek for a job if there's any left! Wouldn't wanan be bored and have silly thoughts. Hahax.. Life is great.

2006-12-07T15:15:00.000+08:00

Ego's badly bruised but life still has to go on, right? Hahax. And i kinda felt more relief le. All thkx to Doris and LIWEE! anyway, watch this video. E dance moves very cool! Is liwee intro one. =) enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jMvne-s8NmY

E steps are so cool!

管不着

(selina)

一个姓名遥远又熟悉

朋友偶尔提起居然还在意

也许只是天气让我有点忧郁

也许在我心底你从来不曾真的离去

只是你的一切我再也管不着

不能管你喝了几杯心情好不好

身上穿的什么颜色也不是我来挑

亲吻的味道也变了

你已把我忘掉

是你的一切我再也管不着

你不在我的怀抱不稀罕我的好

不能照顾你的人生不能敲你的门

如果说遗憾我承认

但你已陌生

一段感情只剩下话题

不敢思索过去和你的甜蜜

那双天真眼睛有没有人会珍惜

最爱的小点心她会不会学着去料理

只是你的一切我再也管不着

不能管你喝了几杯心情好不好

身上穿的什么颜色也不是我来挑

亲吻的味道也变了

你已把我忘掉

是你的一切我再也管不着

你不在我的怀抱不稀罕我的好

不能照顾你的人生不能敲你的门

如果说遗憾我承认

但你已陌生怎能把我忘掉

May time heal part of E wound~

going swimming!

2006-12-05T19:44:00.000+08:00

You looked stunning in the blue long sleeve and i almost wanna stare at you the whole night. You gaze fell on me and i thought you might like what i wear too but you are just too proud to admit it.

We feasted on the best of the best and although it accumulated a lot of bills, you said that was your treat til jz now. You gave me all that i loved and marvelled me with how much you know about my eating habits. I savoured the food as much as i savoured your care. All at once, i felt like a little girl again~

The movie we watched was lame but my body felt warm as i laid in your care and love. Although you were frightened, you tried. And i was happy though i felt sad when you wouldn't let me know why are you scared. I just wanted to solve your problems.

Esplanade was more beautiful than ever when i viewed it with you. Though there are no stars, my heart glittered with you beside me.

I laid in your warm embrace as i soaked in the moonlight and absorbing the feeling when your lips touched mine, no longer afraid.. We talked and i let go of myself, singing and dancing crazily into the night as you held my hand. Even as we strolled down the lane across the dark field, i sensed no fear as i have you with me.

I loved every second of it as we laid on the sofa and watch variety shows til the wee hours of the night and feast on nothing but our presence. Even as we laid down to rest for the night, i can't help but be cautious when i moved for fear i disturb your sleep. The feel of it all is truly remarkable.

I wanted to see you.. Even when i'm weary. You were so concerned. The moment when you told me you don't want me to be alone and gave up your father's ride home, i melted and conceded defeat. I no longer wanna defend myself against you.. Until you broke me again...

2006-12-03T21:12:00.000+08:00

The prom pics are out! Hahax.. Finally, i realise my CD player is working and i can upload all E pics into my computer! ENJOY~

2006-12-02T11:17:00.000+08:00

It's a wonder i go visited my someone i missed and had lost so long ago in my dreams last night. SOBX! I remebered i just laid my head on the person's shoulder while i was standing behind that person adn that person said i was cute! Hahax. So happy~ I'm even hearing compliments in my sleep. Woke up feeling so happy. I wished i can have those visits every night. Hahax. Although i'm completely turned off by what i see in reality.

Sometimes it's really hard to find someone you appreciate and will appreciate you. Gosh. But nevertheless, i kinda expected that since there's this invisible barrier that i never seemed to be able to cross. And i should have known i'll never be invited out since i'm always the one who is asking for it. NVM. So what if i felt comfortable and find no need to hide anything from that person? Quality is always better than quantity.

I'm going to make dumplings later! Hahax. And Doris is coming over later. Gotta go get ready~

I LOVE DA DONG! **KO One ROCKS!**

2006-12-01T20:38:00.000+08:00

He's smile made me smile as though i am soaring in the skies..

He's style made me look at him in wonder...

His eyes make me wanna look in them forever...

DA DONG! DON'T BE SO CUTE CAN?! HAHAHAHAHAHA

He's driving me mad.

I love POOL. Though i can't play that well. But number is strength. The group with 2 always wins! YAY~ And i hurt my finger when i played pool! OUCH! But it's ok lahx. It's fun~!

Today went to watch movie with sarah and hui en. Took a lot of funny pics. Hahax. Cuz plaza singapura got a lot of posters and set-ups. Hahax. I love to act stupid sometimes! *bounce* WEEE~! And we ended up watching HAPPY FEET. It's ok. But i dun really like it. Hahax.. Then we went shopping. SpotLight is so AWESOME! It's like u can get everything u wan for arts and craft. And there's a lot of fabric there! And i bought my jeans at BALENO. GOSH. All E jeans at $29 now. It's not only BALENO, others are selling at $29 too. Everyone, it's time to do some shopping! There's a great deal of discounts around. Hahax.

I'm still watching KO ONE and i love every minute of it~ HOHOHO.

2006-11-29T21:00:00.000+08:00

Went to play soccer with lixuan, tzer, brenda and wan qing todae. Then got this guy can and ask us if we wanna join competition cuz he said he stalked us and he tot we played kinda well. Hahax.. Everyone say we'll consider but actually we didn't. Hahax.

The sun is freakingly HOT. OMG,. I thought i'll get heat stroke if i stayed another minute longer. But the game was pretty fun thou i cant really kick that well. Hahax. And tzer they all are funny in a lame way! I fell during the game since we were playing on concrete floor and i slipped on wet sand. But it didn't hurt even when wanqing poured water on the wound to wash it. It's only after the game then i sensed the pain. But it's healing pretty fast! Hee...

We played at LX's hse E whole afternoon. It was fun! From tennis and badminton in the living room to comp and piano. Hahax. Then we ordered the jin zhen tou. It tasted fabulous. Hahax. I'm sure to eat it again! The bread taste so sweet! But cannot eat too much at one go if not will get tired of it very easily.

Today is such a fun day!

I dunno why i felt such peace.. But it felt so good..

2006-11-28T20:21:00.000+08:00

Felt so refreshed after a bath! hahax. Just now went back to sch with doris they all to take pictures. Then played basketball with kong yong for awhile. We found E ball at E canteen. Hahax. And it's kinda deflated a little le. Then wei yao joined in then padey and jasmine and doris. SO FUN! Then i was perspiring like hell. Doris really good at shooting and kong yong very cute lorx! Padey and wei yao very cool! Jasmine and me like throwing the ball over the hoop to one another. Hahax.

Before that, me and kat(wrong spelling?) went to doris's hse to watch "take the lead"! It was so cool~ So sexy~ So hot~ I wanna learn tango! Hahax.. And salsa! OMG! Hahax. And doris was like playing ard with her CSS uniform. Hahax.. I ate some choc cake and ice cream at doris's. The cake was very hard! Hahax.. And chocolatey. Hahax. But i like it! Hahax.. But it's kinda sweet.

I love my section! Must jia you, ok?! Hahax.. They are so sweet. I believe with practice, they'll be brilliant. Be a perfectionist when it comes to band! I'm looking forward to band camp!

After playing bball, we went to E bubble tea shop and bought food! Hahax. I missed the kind of feeling... I love the band.. So so much.. Although it does bring back happy memories which pained me since they'll never exist anymore... Anyway, i'm gonna treasure my section.. *muackies*

happy bdae dolly! She's so cute!

2006-11-24T19:57:00.000+08:00

If i had super memory, i went to doris house on wednesday to jog and install CD! She had to meet a fren later in the afternoon so i got to see her fren. He's called abel and he's nice. A gentleman i guess. He's really sweet to doris. Hahax.. Doris say all NJC guys are like that. Then we went to play arcade. SO FUN! Hahax. Then we went to the library!!

E next day, i went to doris's hse again to do my nails. SHE'S A REALLY GOOD MANICURIST. Hahax.. The nails turn out good! And after that, i went to janani's house along with nasihah, dina and sarah. Janani's mum drove us to the prom and the prom was awesome. Although i got a little uncomfortable at first but sarah sensed it and really helped me overcome the fear. THANKX! The food was ok but some dishes tasted kinda weird. And i ate a bell chilli! IT WAS SO GROSS. I spit it out right away! Me and sarah shared our food. Hahax. There's this guy who's an alumni and he can sing really well. think he can sign up for singapore idol! He can dance too! I loved their dance item! The prom king and queen this year was fabulous too! Though i thought wendy wen would win. Hahax. But i guess wendy huang is too elegant that night! Hahax.. But anyway, the prom king and queen selection was awesome. I took tons of photos and all~! E sad thing was i was pretty umcomfortable E whole night since my dress was too tight at the top. Hahax..

Today went back to CSS to watch sectionals. I MISSED MY SECTION! A WHOLE LOT. Though i cant play as well as i used to, i am sure i can pick it all up during the band camp. I loved MERRY WIDOW! Hahax. And i love my section more and more.. sobx!

Actually, i wouldn't have thought of the sad past if someone hadn't asked me why i didn't come with that senior. That broke my heart. Terrible.. So we were actually seen as one instead of two diff ppl who are apart. Haix.. But anyway, it's all over, no use brooding over it.

lead a happy life~

2006-11-20T21:05:00.000+08:00

I love KO one!!! OMG.. I's like so cool. I love Da Dong! He's like so cute and cool lorx!

So i did a lot of things after my o levels!!! On fri, went to westmall with lixuan and tzer to borrow library magazines! Hahax.. I finish em le!

on saturade, i went shopping with janani, sarah, shayidah(wrong spelling?) and amira. It was so cool~ I bought a purple silvery satin prom dress. Love it~! Hahahax.. Then we were like laming around. Hahax.. And we're going to shop again tml!!! At night, my dad brought me to buy HP!! Hahax.. Have new hp le! But cannot say E model.. Hmmm.. Secret ne~!

Them on sunday, i went bac to malaysia with my dad. SO COOL~ He took me to E markeplace. There's a lot of maggots on E floor. And they're jumping! OMG. GROSS!! And the smell is so horrible! I cut my hair at malaysia. SO COOL! But i think it's a bit too short le. Haix. But it's ok. Doris found a way to make it look good with my prom dress anyway. THANKX!

Today went shopping with doris. Met xin er and her frenx at taka... Anyway, we went around searching for cosmetics. SO FUN! Hahax.. I didn't noe going out with her can be so fun! Wait til i upload E pics! Hahax.. And we ate frozen strawberries!! OMG. So nice! I'm eating them again!Anyway, had such a tired and enjoyable day!!! Hehex.. Must take a rest le~ Tata~

2006-11-16T20:26:00.000+08:00

One more day to end of o levels and 2 more days to a new handphone!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

But i cant study!!! SO TIRED!!!! Haix.. Maybe sleep early tonight? But i'm so afraid of dreaming.. Good dreams will end up sad when i wake up. Sad dreams will make me sad. And bad dreams will make me missed the times when i always called after i woke up in the middle of the night. *shake head* It's horrible. So horrible i thought i will puke. So where's my courage and will power? WAKE UP GAL!!!

My knee's gonna break some day.. Today it got hurt again. And my knee is hurting so much! Not good. But it's as though my mum can sense i'm in pain or something. When i got home, there's a bottle of supplements for ligiment (wrong spelling?). And she even bought a kind of medicated cream for me to apply. So i shall try em!!! I love the cream! Got a warm sensation after applying de. Hahax..

I wanna go escape!! Yay! Think it's gonna be fun? Hehex.. After o levels bax!

ONE MORE DAY!!! hahaha

2006-11-15T08:29:00.000+08:00

I WAS SHOCKED!!! Luteinising hormone stimulates the production of testosterone.. -_-" Can gals have their own hormones? Why do they share it with boys?! Shocking!!! Ok.. i'm over doing this.

Today is a bright and sunny morning. I've decided to drink milk cause i didn't sleep well again last night, as usual. Is there ever a way to make people sleep better so they won't toss and turn.. So disturbing..

ok.. There like 3 more days to total freedom. Including today. But i don't think i can hold on that long le!!! Felt like playing already. But must persist or i'll regret. So jia you jia you jia you!!!

okiex then.. Don't crap le. Time to play online games. Hahax.

2006-11-12T11:43:00.000+08:00

Perhaps i was in the wrong.. Perhaps i shouldn't have been more mindful.. And it was my fault all along.. I guess some things just have to be learnt.. But will i ever get a second chance? I guess that's how i learnt to be a better person in live. Cause no one is born with a conscience.. Everyone seeks one.. So perhaps i should be a better person and stop having negative thoughts. Afterall, there are worst people out there...

And the best thing is i have o levels to distract me now. =] Without my o levels, i would have died. THANK YOU O LEVELS!!!

Happy birthday DORIS!

And to someone else, i'm sorry...

And to another someone else (if he's reading this), sorry for being harsh yesterday.. I noe he was trying to help but i was fuming..

I'll watch more fruit basket! Meep. And shun everything that's gonna hurt me now. I'll deal with those parts later. When i'm stronger and not so vulnerable. Yippee to success!~

I missed you 2 so much and i fear i'll never see you again.. Or perhaps i shall organise a secret meeting after my o levels.. Hmmm..

2006-11-11T13:44:00.000+08:00

It's insecurity and confusion that made me wanna ask it. I noe running away from it won't help.. And i need to noe so i asked.. But what i didn't expect was that i can actually irritate someone in the process.. I was so hurt and shocked when i heard it that i cannot speak. I'm afraid if i speak, i'll start crying. So i kept quiet. And perhaps that is wrong too. Perhaps i shouldn't have asked.. Perhaps i shouldn't have cleared my doubts at all. It made me feel so dumb for asking something i never know. I hated the problem. I AM dealing with it.. But i thought a little support and understanding could be good.. Afterall, i'm just confused.. And i needed a whole lot of comfort then..

2006-11-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAE! AND IT'S OK!!! hahax.. I thought it's gonna be bad.. But it's ok. Nice in fact. At least people remember it. Hahax... And my sis bought me a pair of earrings. My younger sis gave me $5... Hahax.. Cuz she cannot go out and buy.

After the paper, liying, gina and me go eat pepper lunch. They treat me. I first time eat lorx! So nice!!! Hahax.. I ordered the salmon one.. Hahax. Very nice. And i love the miso soup too! It's a bit like fried rice lorx. And i add too much pepper!

The gina was like telling jokes. Hahax.. Dirty jokes and lame one. I noe two dirty jokes about musicians lehx. Hahax..

Actually suppose to go play with goo de. The one where you put coloured goo on shapes and bake em so they become hard. Those kids plae de. But dunno why liying and gina backed out at the las min. Hahax..

Saw liwee and her mum at IMM.. I was so busy toking to liwee i forgot to greet her mum.. SHIT. And when i realise, it was too late.. haix.. SORRY SORRY!

gtg.. I love my bdae!!!

2006-11-09T18:56:00.000+08:00

I wished i wished i wished for a dinner and for people to remember what day is it tomorrow.. But i don't think it is going to come true.. My birthday seemed so insignificant. And when i told someone about it, that someone said, "Then that's your problem." Perhaps it is really my problem.. I don't wanna care but somehow, it's bugging me all the same.. So what will happen if no one remembers? So what will happen if i have to get over it alone? What happens if people cook up all sorts of excuses cuz they hate me? What if...?

Perhaps i should just go home after my paper tomorrow and stop wishing that i can have a simple dinner with frenx.

The more i say, the more demoralising this is.. Shit...

Ok.. geog and bio was like hellish.. Not really that hellish but i couldn't sae i could breeze through it either. Crap.. I thought o levels was suppose to be easy? Nahx~ Learnt that the hard way.

Just now on the way to &-! with gina, liying and shi quan, we saw this wrigglt earthworm. DAMN GROSS, K?! I was so grossed out.. But not terrified lahx cuz i can squash it since it's so small.. But liying and shiquan like damn scared. -_-" And i realise liying's afraid of insects! COOL~ And her bdae is coming.. Hmmmm...

I wan pizza! Or pasta! Or ANYTHING! Haix.. I wan dinner.. Bye.

2006-11-08T14:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i was griefing so much i had a night mare.. A little girl was chasing me with a knife in her hands. And she kept wanting to kill me with it. She had already slashed my face three times with it.. I tried running away from her.. But no many how i ran down, i cant get to the first level. And i can remember her gong to the same sch as me and she was trying to find me in a worksite. I remembered the green nettings.. But it was deserted.. Haix..

I felt so unwanted.. Very unwanted in fact.. All i wan is for the tortures to stop...

The english paper was ok... And i ate meaty noodles just now with liying and gina. But i hate the taste of pig liver!!! EEEEEEEEEwwwwwwwww..

must stop feeling upset

haix...

2006-11-07T17:10:00.000+08:00

I know i have no rights.. I nknow i had no say.. But i'm feeling down all the same.. This suckx.. I don't even know why i got so emotional.. I accidently saw the book which contained those wonderful memories.. Everything had changed so much.. I shouldn't live in the past anymore, should i? But still, i feel a hint of sadness... I wanna feel things the old way.. When everything was wonderful.. When kindness and consideration was there..

A surprise was even rejected.. It hurt me badly.. it felt as though i was not wanted.. No matter how much i wanna know the whereabouts, i never dared to ask out loud.. But i know if i'm not told, something bad is happening.. But i can only stare helplessly...

Must cure my emo-ness soon...

2006-11-05T10:23:00.000+08:00

I am washing my hands off my stupid handphone which keeps shutting down on me! The battery is crazy! Suddenly, there's only a little battery left and the next second, the battery's full.. -_-" It's driving me nuts! And he keeps turning off. And there's always error when i tried to send messages.. I'm so damn irritated. I'm gonna get a phone! But i have to wait til febuary next year.. Til my plan expires.. Oh GoD.. Think by that time, the phone will totally stop functioning at all cost.. *pray pray pray*

STOP TAKING ME ON A ROLLER COASTER RIDE! It's not like i've not cried enough or suffered enough or tortured enough. STOP PLAYING WITH MY FEELINGS! You do that again, i'm so gonna beat the crap out of you. You don't tell the person how much you miss the person and later claimed that you actually liked another person more, right? Trying to hurt? Try again. I'm not gonna take the bait again. Once bitten, twice shy. I have this hard crab shield covered all over my body. I'm NOT gonna let myself be deceived again. Watch it.. My defences are up so you better think twice about hurting me again.GRRR...

Stayed up late last night to study social studies.. This morning had a bad headache.. So drank a bottle of chicken essence.. Yummy! I love that stuff!!! I love chicken! Later i'm gonna eat chicken rice AGAIN! I'm a big chicken fan!! *cluck cluck*

Must go study the horrible social studies now. Tata~

2006-11-04T13:36:00.000+08:00

last night, i dreamt of shin goon again! But i woke up at 3am feeling nauseated and dizzy.. So creepy.. Last time someone told me that 3am is the most scary time of a day cuz spirits are strongest at this point in time.. The i could not get back to sleep because the pills i take will cause incomnia.. So i messaged someone and ended up wetting my pillow case.. I was feeling alright de.. But somehow,the more i say, the more i cry.. So perhaps i should start saying le.. Afterall, there's a saying: no man is ever worth a woman's tears.. But yet, i can't help it sometimes..

Perhaps it had all been a beautiful dream.. Perhaps all those are lies... Who knows? I guess i'll find out after my o levels. Afterall, this is not the time to be crying myself to sleep and wishing i do not have to take the examinations, right?

Way to go!

Gotta study social studies though i am kind of sure i won't do very well for it. =[ Time to dig out my lorms and see what i can do about it.. But i think i better forcus on my E math. Afterall, that's the subject i wanna count in.

After o levels, i will make sure i play til i die.. or perhaps, cry til i die.. wadever..

And it's so creepy.. My inner self is talking to me again! Last time when i was younger, it kept talking to me.. But it had gone for sometime.. Now it had came back again. Oh no! Am i too stressed for my own good?

*JiaMin*

Had fun in the TOILET!

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