Saturday, December 30, 2006
She tried to run away from her awful past, abandoning all the pain and all those that brought her memories.. Until she rammed into a spikey bush and laid there... Dead.
I've had a fever! Oh no.. I think if this goes on, i'll become an idiot someday. Hahax.
Yesterday, i went shopping with one of my cousin! Sh'es very cool and has a really good fashion sense. There's a lot of sales at vivo. So so helped me chose a top from ZARA. Hahax. I love it! If not for her fashion advice, i would have taken E pink top instead of E orangey yellow one. Hahax. Her taste is really good. If i hadn't been feeling awful, i would have went into ultra shopping mode. Hahax. I love E sales!
I guess i'm gonna get some advice on getting a good night's rest. I never seem to be able to sleep well no matter how tired i am. Psychological prob? Hahax. But i guess i'm getting better! YAY!
time to watch bleach again!
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 5:38 PM!
She tried to run away from her awful past, abandoning all the pain and all those that brought her memories.. Until she rammed into a spikey bush and laid there... Dead.
I've had a fever! Oh no.. I think if this goes on, i'll become an idiot someday. Hahax.
Yesterday, i went shopping with one of my cousin! Sh'es very cool and has a really good fashion sense. There's a lot of sales at vivo. So so helped me chose a top from ZARA. Hahax. I love it! If not for her fashion advice, i would have taken E pink top instead of E orangey yellow one. Hahax. Her taste is really good. If i hadn't been feeling awful, i would have went into ultra shopping mode. Hahax. I love E sales!
I guess i'm gonna get some advice on getting a good night's rest. I never seem to be able to sleep well no matter how tired i am. Psychological prob? Hahax. But i guess i'm getting better! YAY!
time to watch bleach again!
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 5:30 PM!
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Lonely~ I am so lonely~ I have nobody~ lalalax
But lonely's fine. As long as there's no agony involved. Phew.
I finally painted my room! Revamp! Make over. Mwahahax. Feeling so proud of myself. E colours are bold. And there's no colour called hot pink in te pain industry. The guy was like thinking i was mad when i kept asking for it. But Anyway, i got something called majestic smth. It looks like red but it looks like hot pink. Somewhat that colour so it's pretty bold. Hahax. Then i chose barley white too. Though it's not white too. It's like orangey? Hahax. But anyway, the room turned out fine. Just fine. I wouldn't wanna turn my room into a pig's den again!
Long live the bangladesh people! You won't know how hard it is to paint til you've tried it. Not only do u have to climb here and there like a monkey, you gotta get precision and a little error is gonna be noticed very easily. And you gonna make sure E paint is evenly spreaded if not you'll get patches of diff shades. And you arms, hands and legs are gonna hurt. It took me 2 days! NOT BAD!Hahax.. But now i'm suffering.. Limbs are weak. But i love it!
I never knew blogging and listening to music are made for each other! i love this so much! Hahax.
suppose to have secton outing but a lot of ppl cannot make it...
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 8:59 AM!
Friday, December 22, 2006
The moment i saw C, i sat frozen. I tried to smile and say hi but C just walked past cooly. For a second, it felt like E day we were caught on the stairs---scared and confused. Then i felt nervous and sad. I felt like crying. And before i cried, i felt happiness radiating from me. God had granted my wish. God had seen me dreaming for days and weeks and finally, God had allowed me to see C.. I felt loved and happy. Though it didn't last and i probably don't matter to C, but i'm happy.
God loves me.
And it's time to repay God for i never deserved E kindness. It's time to be kind to all. God takes away things from you to make you sad and unhappy. But in return, God gives you much happiness. I was never a follower. But i believed there's God for he granted my heart's only desire and gave me the best christmas gift ever.
And God gave me a fren who told me that i was special and wanted. And God have me another fren who helps me with my problems though i am greatly worried for her own welfare. And God gave me another fren, who is now in China, who taught me the ways to be nice and to be accepted. God is great, isn't he?
Went out with Seha todae! It was great fun! We went shopping until my feet were aching and then we went to esplanade. It's been a long time since i went there. I loved every minute of it. It brought bac a lot of memories which filled my empty heart once again. And ACJC choir is singing christmas carols there. Hahax. I loved listening to em. Hahax. They're pretty good! Even the view from E roof top is cool~! And for a sec, i rmb that night. Seha and I wrote our wishes on this white ball and i hope our wishes will come true. Hahax. I would have written smth diff if there's not so many ppl behind me. We were sort of alone when we approached E stands but as we were writing, A LOT of ppl came. Hahax. We have sexy butts? Ice cream was great! Hahax.
And gals! Check out E road shows at orchard MRT station. There's tons of freebies that are pretty useful. Hahax. Women's weekly offers really good things. LOREAL PRODUCTS! Hahax.
**All i want for christmas is you~!
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 8:15 PM!
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Ever seen a person lick the small pieces of vegetable out of a big nugget and throwing it away? Try watching sarah eat.
Todae i went shopping again! With sarah and her cousin, elise. It was fun! Hahax. Though i was pretty worn out.
Christmas is coming! Hehex. And i hope it won't be a lonely christmas! Hahax.. I guess i can communicate better with the ppl i noe. Cuz i'm slowly starting toget use to elise's accent. Hahax...
Trying on clothes just for fun is getting better! Hahax. I love it! Esp when u go in grps and E sales person won't eye you like you're a pest or something. Hahax.
I'm finally feeling better? I guess...
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 8:46 PM!
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Rainy days are just so lovely you can never tell E time~! It feels as though i'm at genting with this cooling weather and my mood is fab~ Who likes to wake up feeling parched and warm? Hehex. This rain is going to last for 3 days! Yea! But it's gonna be over tml.. Hmmmm...
It's time to enter a new life with the lightest hearts and a joyous soul. Afterall, it's time to throw away the bad things that has been cursing my life.
Sort of regretted hanging on for so long and experiencing all the negative sides.. If i had just left earlier, there might have been more happy memories to remember...
Rain rain come again...
BLEACH IS FAB~!
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 12:18 PM!
Thursday, December 14, 2006
These few days was pretty fun! Hehex. But i miss DORIS! She left when i was still in MALAYSIA. SOBX. But nevermind, it's not like she's not coming back, right? I hope she brings back A LOT OF of CHINA stuff. hahax.
2 days back, Me and sarah when to orchard with her cousin(elise) and her cousin's fren(ema). They are both from australia. Ema is a pure australian i guess. Hahax. And i had trouble understanding their slang. I couldn't catch anything at all! So i was pretty quiet. We went shopping and all. It was fun! But i didn't really see anything i really liked. What a pity. But i loved E KFC set meal. It has a burger, a box of popcorn chicken and a drumstick with a cup of drinks. IT'S NICE. Hahax. But everything is pretty small. It doesn't look as big as it does on TV.
Anyway, yesterday, the four of us went to escape and hui en came too! Hahax. It was fun. $6 with ree ice cream and free candy floss and a free carnival game. We went into the haunted hse for our first game. I thought there will be things grabbing us but actually, it's all mechanised. It's all machines and it's not really that bad. There's a cofin which doesn't even open. Hahax. But i was pretty shaken anyway.
Then we went to play the bumper boats and we got all wet! For every group, one person is bound to get left behind and cant return to "shore". For our group, it was ELISE. hahax. We were pretty drenched as we settled down for lunch at burger king/orange julius. That place was packed. Hahax.
After that, we waited an hour for the go-kart. Hahax. But it was worth while. I was the first to go and i drove pretty fast though i was screaming away when i was going down E slope. So i went for 3 rounds cuz i arrived too early or perhaps the guy sort of forgot that i went past once le. Hahax. Then sarah got stuck at the slope and only got to go for one round. So i guess i drove her one round for her.
Then we went to have a ride in the pirate's ship. Though we are nopt able to sit at the back of the ship, we sat near the middle and i already have a lurching feeling feeling in my stomach. Hahax. But it was pretty fun!
Then we went on the roller coaster which was pretty ok. It's just that i kept sliding around in my seat. Hahax.
There's another ride called the rainbow. It was fun! It's like swing high up into the air. It looks creepy but it's totally fab! Hahax. I enjoyed it the most. But sarah's afraid of going on it. So she sort of missed the fun.. But actually, it's not that frightening. We were just screaming for fun.
And there was the carnival games. Hahax. Ema won a blue tiger. ROAR. Hahax. It was cute! The games where pretty fun~!
And there was the rain which kept coming down. The ride have to be cancelled. Haix. So we didn't get to try out EVERYTHING. Hahax. But nevertheless, i'm going again with my cousins. Hahax.
And today, it's time to laze around at home!
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 8:55 AM!
Sunday, December 10, 2006
I'm back and definately happier! Hahax..
1st day
My cousin, er jie, was bathing E dog when we arrived. And after that, wen the dog was left to dry in the sun, it kept rolling and rolling on the grass as though it had gone mad. Hahax.. So it's like it all dirty again. But it dries up faster that way. Hahax.. Then er jie and i cut his fur.. The end result wasn't so good. And he was whining.. Haix.. And he hates me.. SOB.. Time to buy him treats. It's also the night then we are all celebrating my uncle's bdae! Hahax.. It's very cool~ We went to this restaurant where it's famous for it's duck. It's wrapped in pao with cucumber and a special kind of sauce. YUMMY! Hahax. And there's scallop and all. I LOVE IT! I wouldn't mind eating it all over and over again!
One of my cousin's, san jie, gave me her top. It has a "miss cindy" print with some flowers and jewels. I love it! But it's kinda mocking me.. And i simply adore E cutting! YAY!
Had bad dreams E whole night.. Full of vulgarities and heart breaks and all.. Maybe it's that top's effect on me or whatever. But i woke up again and again, dreaming of the terrible things.. Sick..
2nd day
Had black noodles for breakfast! YUM! Growing fatter as every minute flew past. Hahax.. And that day, i bought a bubble short! It's like a bubble skirt but it's in the form of shorts! But it's really very SHORT. Hahax.. But i loved it all the same!
My cousins and I prepared for BBQ! It was lovely. We went to buy E BBQ food from a shop. It's all in frozen form, even E marinated chicken. And E cashier accidently dropped it, producing a loud "thud". It showed how frozen that thing is----- it could kill a cow.
BBQ was great. Though i cant really make sure if E chicken is cooked or not. Hahax.. But i made sure of one thing----Ah hao (one of my cousin) is as bad as me. Hahax. He burnt his food. And that night, i dreamt of my grandpa. It was not all that sad of anything.. Just a bit werd. Hahax.. Must be due to my wild imagination.
Anyway, san jie gave me another wallet. It's cool! Her taste rock! Hahax. I love it tons. And she gave that to me for a secret reason. Hahax.
3rd day
It was bright and sunny and we were packing to go home. But before that, my cousins and i were browsing through fashion magazine!Hahax.. I saw a few pretty clothing! How i wish i can get my hands on them.. Haix.. I love E herbal tea my auntie cooks. It's VERY delicious. Hahax. And she's been growing a herb garden of smth liddat. SO COOL.
ANYWAY, THAT'S THE END OF MY 3 DAY 2 NIGHT MALAYSIA "CAMP".
Time to seek for a job if there's any left! Wouldn't wanan be bored and have silly thoughts. Hahax.. Life is great.
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 4:51 PM!
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Ego's badly bruised but life still has to go on, right? Hahax. And i kinda felt more relief le. All thkx to Doris and LIWEE! anyway, watch this video. E dance moves very cool! Is liwee intro one. =) enjoy!
E steps are so cool!
管不着
(selina)
一个姓名遥远又熟悉
朋友偶尔提起居然还在意
也许只是天气让我有点忧郁
也许在我心底你从来不曾真的离去
只是你的一切我再也管不着
不能管你喝了几杯心情好不好
身上穿的什么颜色也不是我来挑
亲吻的味道也变了
你已把我忘掉
是你的一切我再也管不着
你不在我的怀抱不稀罕我的好
不能照顾你的人生不能敲你的门
如果说遗憾我承认
但你已陌生
一段感情只剩下话题
不敢思索过去和你的甜蜜
那双天真眼睛有没有人会珍惜
最爱的小点心她会不会学着去料理
只是你的一切我再也管不着
不能管你喝了几杯心情好不好
身上穿的什么颜色也不是我来挑
亲吻的味道也变了
你已把我忘掉
是你的一切我再也管不着
你不在我的怀抱不稀罕我的好
不能照顾你的人生不能敲你的门
如果说遗憾我承认
但你已陌生怎能把我忘掉
May time heal part of E wound~
going swimming!
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 3:15 PM!
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
You looked stunning in the blue long sleeve and i almost wanna stare at you the whole night. You gaze fell on me and i thought you might like what i wear too but you are just too proud to admit it.
We feasted on the best of the best and although it accumulated a lot of bills, you said that was your treat til jz now. You gave me all that i loved and marvelled me with how much you know about my eating habits. I savoured the food as much as i savoured your care. All at once, i felt like a little girl again~
The movie we watched was lame but my body felt warm as i laid in your care and love. Although you were frightened, you tried. And i was happy though i felt sad when you wouldn't let me know why are you scared. I just wanted to solve your problems.
Esplanade was more beautiful than ever when i viewed it with you. Though there are no stars, my heart glittered with you beside me.
I laid in your warm embrace as i soaked in the moonlight and absorbing the feeling when your lips touched mine, no longer afraid.. We talked and i let go of myself, singing and dancing crazily into the night as you held my hand. Even as we strolled down the lane across the dark field, i sensed no fear as i have you with me.
I loved every second of it as we laid on the sofa and watch variety shows til the wee hours of the night and feast on nothing but our presence. Even as we laid down to rest for the night, i can't help but be cautious when i moved for fear i disturb your sleep. The feel of it all is truly remarkable.
I wanted to see you.. Even when i'm weary. You were so concerned. The moment when you told me you don't want me to be alone and gave up your father's ride home, i melted and conceded defeat. I no longer wanna defend myself against you.. Until you broke me again...
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 7:44 PM!
Sunday, December 03, 2006
The prom pics are out! Hahax.. Finally, i realise my CD player is working and i can upload all E pics into my computer! ENJOY~
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 9:12 PM!
Saturday, December 02, 2006
It's a wonder i go visited my someone i missed and had lost so long ago in my dreams last night. SOBX! I remebered i just laid my head on the person's shoulder while i was standing behind that person adn that person said i was cute! Hahax. So happy~ I'm even hearing compliments in my sleep. Woke up feeling so happy. I wished i can have those visits every night. Hahax. Although i'm completely turned off by what i see in reality.
Sometimes it's really hard to find someone you appreciate and will appreciate you. Gosh. But nevertheless, i kinda expected that since there's this invisible barrier that i never seemed to be able to cross. And i should have known i'll never be invited out since i'm always the one who is asking for it. NVM. So what if i felt comfortable and find no need to hide anything from that person? Quality is always better than quantity.
I'm going to make dumplings later! Hahax. And Doris is coming over later. Gotta go get ready~
I LOVE DA DONG! **KO One ROCKS!**
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 11:17 AM!
Friday, December 01, 2006
He's smile made me smile as though i am soaring in the skies..
He's style made me look at him in wonder...
His eyes make me wanna look in them forever...
DA DONG! DON'T BE SO CUTE CAN?! HAHAHAHAHAHA
He's driving me mad.
I love POOL. Though i can't play that well. But number is strength. The group with 2 always wins! YAY~ And i hurt my finger when i played pool! OUCH! But it's ok lahx. It's fun~!
Today went to watch movie with sarah and hui en. Took a lot of funny pics. Hahax. Cuz plaza singapura got a lot of posters and set-ups. Hahax. I love to act stupid sometimes! *bounce* WEEE~! And we ended up watching HAPPY FEET. It's ok. But i dun really like it. Hahax.. Then we went shopping. SpotLight is so AWESOME! It's like u can get everything u wan for arts and craft. And there's a lot of fabric there! And i bought my jeans at BALENO. GOSH. All E jeans at $29 now. It's not only BALENO, others are selling at $29 too. Everyone, it's time to do some shopping! There's a great deal of discounts around. Hahax.
I'm still watching KO ONE and i love every minute of it~ HOHOHO.
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 8:38 PM!
