Sunday, October 15, 2006
I feel grossed out at how some people put on a happy front while they cry behind.. May seemed like a very noble act but if one is upset, i really don't see the need to act as though everything around the world is so beautiful and happy. You may wanna call this positivity. But look at it this way, does the person have to act until he/she is very happy? It can be neutral right?
And i agree with L. My 2mths=her 2 years. Believe it or not. It came as a shock.. Yes.. A very big one in fact. And guess what's she trying to do to close the gap? She starts liking things that she used to dislike. A lot.. And even went to the extent of buying a magazine to get a poster? How miraculous! Why bother to change yourself to fit into other people's life? In the end, it's gonna end up wrong again.
And honestly, question yourself, does it even make sense to do all these? Perhaps you can forget so easily.. But not me. At least i still hold pride in what i'm doing. At least i never try to be one brand new person i'm not cut up to be. At least i let the person who loved me love me for who i am.. At least i'm me.
L made me realise so many things.. How mindless a person can be and how totally foolish i am.. I'm such a fool for loving you. I am.. Don't try to talk me out of it.. Cuz i don't see why i should not be a fool for doing that.. And yet i did that. Until now..
In case you are reading this, you wrote that openly in your blog and made it so obvious. Then you went around telling people it was not obvious at all.. Don't make my blood boil by having to tell you that IT'S DAMN OBVIOUS.
And perhaps i don't have to say in case you are readin this. I KNOW YOU ARE. Cause it's always a person's curiousity to make them do redundant things. And once again, i'm redundant. Thankx for lying to me that you are NOT taking any action when you clearly ARE. If not, please explain the jay chou poster you bought. And don't gimme the excuse that he's talented. You and i know that he is long ago. But both of us agreed that we disliked him. A person with true personality won't change that much in such a short time. oops.. I forgot. my 2 mths= to your 2 years.
And wrong can u be and how wrong can i get.. Oh god.. Jia min.. Wake up.. And last time, you still tag my board with such stuff?! I won't go down to that level. Hah. And wake up.. Please.. Cant see you do that to yourself anymore. But nevertheless, i can stop you. So be my guest. *be our guest~ Be our guest~ be of service to the guest~*
Anyway, after whatever L told me, i tink i should start forgiving a dear fren of mine.. Maybe she had never helped me when i'm down b4 but.. She's down and i won't do nothing to help her..
GAMBATTE~
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 6:54 PM!
