Wednesday, August 30, 2006
I am on the verge of tears and only had time to turn around before the tears roll down my eyes..
I felt transparent. And i'm sure anyone can tell.. I knew that things will never be the same..
But i tried...
And got this..
Everytime i plunge myself into this, i felt so upset. I'm grieving inside yet i hav to put on a smile.
I need someone to talk to.. Some one who will understand.. Some one...
I don't want to be the one who is planning things.. I want to be asked out... But everything i do seemed to go wrong.
I'm drifting away from people i love.. From people whom i care for.. I don't want to. But the feeling of being transparent is too overwhelming..
I told myself that a smile can drive away all troubles.. But it did not. Who knows it when i'm upset..? Or who even cares to ask me what's wrong..
I need a listening ear.. I need someone who will listen to me. I don't want to hide my feelings anymore. But i'm afarid to talk.. I'm afraid things will worsen when i talk. Like it happened before.. But i really wanna talk.. I really wanted to.. I wan this friendship.. But the more i grab hold of it, the more it fly away..
Haix..
Heart ached and mind in a whirl..
Today's geog paper was a disaster.. Pray hard..
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 6:13 PM!
