Thursday, August 31, 2006
Today went back for the teachers' day celebration. It was kinda cool. The performance by the tamil students not bad. Dunno lehx. Can really feel the energy in their dance.
Paddey and his classmates also haf a rock band. He play drum set v cool lahx. But i don't like the way the songs were sung. Perhaps i'm not very used to that kind of rock band singing.
Anyway, made a few cards and gave them out le.. Felt happy. Cuz at least i can do something for the teachers. Don't wanna leave school feeling that i've not done anything for the four years.
Went to play pool with C. Kept losing. So sad.. Dunno why but just cannot concentrate. I got kinda upset.. Then i convinced myself that it's not pure bad luck. When my mood got better, i got better and finally "won" the last round. Act, is i got 2 turns to hit the black ball in lahx. If not C would haf won.
Then we met Doris, Kenneth and Daniel. Think they came with michelle and cheryl choy. Doris change a lot! Really miss her.. So long never talk to her le.. It would be fun to really talk to her. =]
Went for ice cream at the end of the day. Then met jocelyn and amanda at JP. Then as we talked, we saw sihui. So qiao. Everyone like in JP liddat. Hah..
Go marina Square play pool mahx so will go shop shop. Saw a very nice silver bangle. Thirteen bucks! But i love it.. Haix.. Kept thinking bout it til now. Budden i was looking thru my closet and realised that the bangle didn't go well with any of my clothes. BUT I LOVE IT..
Those things still troubled me a lot.. Do i really deserved to be treated this way? Haix.. What should i ever do...?
Tata..
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 9:17 PM!
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
I am on the verge of tears and only had time to turn around before the tears roll down my eyes..
I felt transparent. And i'm sure anyone can tell.. I knew that things will never be the same..
But i tried...
And got this..
Everytime i plunge myself into this, i felt so upset. I'm grieving inside yet i hav to put on a smile.
I need someone to talk to.. Some one who will understand.. Some one...
I don't want to be the one who is planning things.. I want to be asked out... But everything i do seemed to go wrong.
I'm drifting away from people i love.. From people whom i care for.. I don't want to. But the feeling of being transparent is too overwhelming..
I told myself that a smile can drive away all troubles.. But it did not. Who knows it when i'm upset..? Or who even cares to ask me what's wrong..
I need a listening ear.. I need someone who will listen to me. I don't want to hide my feelings anymore. But i'm afarid to talk.. I'm afraid things will worsen when i talk. Like it happened before.. But i really wanna talk.. I really wanted to.. I wan this friendship.. But the more i grab hold of it, the more it fly away..
Haix..
Heart ached and mind in a whirl..
Today's geog paper was a disaster.. Pray hard..
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 6:13 PM!
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
I finally understood where i stood in your heart..
And i'm darn upset bout that..
I didn't know i meant so little...
Perhaps i'm not even needed in your life..
Perhaps to you, i'm just a person who it there for you but is never needed by you..
Perhaps..
I never know the words to say..
But i can only pray,
that one day you will understand.
How i wished i can smash that gal into a pulp and roast her in the oven.. Oh no.. Later got too much oil secretion. Then spoil my oven. Irritating.. This is the first time i met some one so irritating. Keep wanting to cut in. Even when it's clear you are not toking to her and dun wan to. I'm so damn pissed!
Come on lor.. I know her for like 4 yrs and you? You like push me away from my friend for wad? Some times, things hear don't need to be repeated lor. Wad and who the hell is she to even repeat and comment?
No good words full of praise ever comes out of her mouth. All she gave is sarcastic comments. Eat your words, k? Don't think you are all so perfect. Some things are not THAT funny.
One day i will get the last laugh..
Must study le. Jia you jia you jia you~! Muackies.
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 7:50 PM!
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Today went back to malaysia to pray for my grandpa. My family and my cousin(er jie) who studies in NTU went back together. Before that, we passed by johor mahx so went to look for my 3rd uncle for breakfast. I ate prawn noodle. Actually, it did not taste as bad as others said it does. But the noodle is kinda dry and all. But after adding the soup, it taste pretty good. I kinda liked it.. Maybe i have weird taste? The toilet there is so totally disgusting. Can't believe i used it.. It has a lump of shit in it. And worst still, the flush is not working.. Sick. I'm glad i used it after eating..
Anyway, I met my 1st uncle cuz he living with my 3rd uncle.. It's been a while since i've seen him.. I don't really rmb him.. And i dun tink he likes it? Dunno.. Not my fault that i don't rmb him, right?
My dad dun really know how to get to the fu gui shan zhuang where my grandpa's ash is placed so we ended by in circles and all. It was frightfully tiring. And hot of course.. I thought i am going to be sick.
We got there and met up with my cousins, uncle(er jie's dad), auntie(er jie's mum) and grandma. After that, we went to pray. There is this big hall where nuns are hired to chant or smth. Then there are tables and all.. At the back of the hall, there is a big shelf where the names of the decease are placed for people to pray there. There is a stage at the front of the hall with 3 golden god statues. The shelves at the back cost $188, the tables at the middle cost $688 and the "big houses" with lights nearest to the stage cost tons.. A few thousand dollars at least. There is this very disturbing thing. There are flies all around us!!! Millions of them. And no one cares to kill them. How i wished a have the "electric racket" with me. Then i can electricute them all! There are offerings on the tables which cost $688 so the flies all gather there. They dig into the bowls of rice and stand on prac everything on the table. They are so disgusting, they make me squirm. The rise looked like sesame seed rice, only that the seeds are moving. GROSS! And when people passed the tables, the house flies rose up like a swarm of bees. EWWWWW!!!
We went to the place where my grandpa's ash is kept. We went there to pray and stuff then we sat in the air-conditioned place to rest. It so happened that my father, younger sis and i were sitting near the door and beside the glass panels wheer a lot of house flies are. So my dad took a rubber band and began to shoot the house flies. It was fun and we killed a handful of the vile creature. Unfortunately, i don't think we are suppose to do that. Anyway, i realise that houseflies don't have blood. hey just have some kind of white subst. My dad said that it's their guts and all. They are equally gross, be it dead or alive. *shudder*
Lunch was provided. We had bee hoon and all.. Fake meat and curry veggie and bee hoon/noodles are provided. It was nice!!! I loved that kind of food. Hehex... Esp bee hoon and fake meat and curry veggie. Hahax.
That is the end of our praying trip!
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 5:35 PM!
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Yesterday, my mum wanted to go to watch the fireworks so my dad had to pick me up from school and ruch me back home for a bath or anything.
We went to eat steam boat for dinner! It was so nice!!! I loved it. It's the same place i went last time with tai koon, sihui and the rest. I ate quite a lot considering the fact that i was starving and had not eaten much since that morning. I loved the prawns! Though i wouldn't peel it myself. The benefit of going out with your parents-----they will do things for you. Hahax..
The we went there on time to watch the fireworks. It was brilliant! I loved the "meteor showers". Hahax.. I think i enjoyed it more than the last time i watched. And the best thing is i even captured it on video!!! In my handphone of course.
Today, i woke up late.. Cuz i was too tired the night before. The bad thing is i woke up aching all over.. Feels like some kind of hang over. hahax..
I think i'm beginning to adore chem prac sessions. It is so fun! Especially QA. The answers for QA is fixed. If you get it, you just record it down. And everyone usually get the same thing. But for VA, it is different. And i hated methyl orange. That indicator is so hard to note the colour change. And i haf to be extra careful.
Anyway, must gambatte le.. No time to lose le mahx.. Don't wanna end up feeling like wad i did when i got my chinese o'level results. I felt damn horrible lor. Jia you jia you jia you to everyone taking the o'lvels!!! Hahax...
Tmr must go back malaysia cuz need to go and pray. Cuz it's the 7th lunar mth and must go pray pray my ah gong. =] Cheers!
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 11:03 AM!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Went shopping with Sihui today! It was great! Actually, we are suppose to get sun glasses but we ended up buying a lot of other things and not getting the sun glasses. Hahax.
Sihui really spend a lot lor.. Hahax.. She just cannot resist the temptations. Hahax.. She buy a lot of things. Hahax.. I also bought a lot of things! Tube top, underwear, earrings... Hahax.. Actually, got a shop to reccommend. It's at cineleisure. It's on the second floor. It' s a shop which sells underwear. The designs are kinda cute. Boxers are sold there too! Hahax.. Anyway, we saw a guy's g-string.. It looks damn funny with a hole at the middle portion.
Anyway, shopping is so tiring!!! My feet as still aching. Shouldn't have worn the the wedges. My feet is hurting! But it was fun. Saw a lot of shiny stuff. I love them!!! But never buy lahx. Hahax.. Maybe next time!
Shopping with Sihui is so cool! But waiting for her at the MRT station is awful. Hahax..
Anyway, prelims coming lorx.. OMG.. I very nervous lehx.. People, stop telling me my prelims are coming! OMG.. I need revision!!! Cannot play le.. Waaah.. I must calm down and really study.. I must find motivation.. But til now, i dun even know wad i wanna be.. I dun wanna be a teacher anymore.. I dunno.. Maybe i wanna be a secretary? But my english sucked.. Sigh..
I think i shall "pretend" to be a university student now.. Yay~! Must study study.. OMG.. Gambatte to everyone else too!!!
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 6:37 PM!
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
I CHANGED MY BLOG SKIN!!! Took so long. But it's worth it! Hehex.. I love PURPLE~!
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 11:43 AM!
It was as though it was all my fault.
It was as though i was the one who created all the mess.
It was as though i caused this ending.
I am NOT the one. For heaven's sake.
I'm not suppose to be treated badly.
I should be treating you badly instead.
But look who's doing it now?
One sec, you are asking to be my friend. The next, you turn against me?
If that's your problem, don't vent it out on me.
Cause i DON'T deserve it.
I didn't push her to you.
But you thought of her all the same.
So it's not my fault that you thought of her.
And i'm nice enough to not pursue on.
Just cause i don't wanna give you another chance?
Ask yourself if you deserve another chance after you have been given SO MANY chances.
Wake UP!
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 1:55 AM!
Monday, August 07, 2006
This week is so hectic.. So many homework to do and so many deadlines to meet. I spent a few hours redoing a situational writing. This is terrible.
A lot of things happened yesterday.. It broke my heart.. Again.. I didn't expect things to turn out this way again.. But nevertheless, there is nothing i can do. Perhaps this is all heaven's will..
Anyway, i have to thank Sihui for listening to me.. It feels so much better now.. I thought i was going to die then.. But after i poured everything out, i felt better. THANKX DEAR!
I must thank Xin er for the food stuff. I loved the sweet potaoes! And peanut butter cookie and pear! Hahax.. Anyway, i did eat the pear. It was sweet. Thank you! Next time must bring something nice to school to share..
I went swimming just now. The water is so refreshing! I love swimming. And i love the wave pool as well. And i taught my sis how to swim! She was so scared.. Then my dad taught her for so long and she still cant swim.. Then i taught once then can le.. Now she not scared le. But still cant swim on her own.. I guess she must practise more..
I was thinking of prom night.. I really hoped that a dancing platform can be available and music can be played to allow people to dance. I want to experience the kind of prom night i had read in those american novels. Hmm.. Can i suggest that?
Guess i gotta go have dinner le. Muackies.
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 9:49 AM!
