Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Was going home just now. Listening to my "bf's" song "love story" (by fan yi chen) then suddenly thought of how unhappy i was.. (How i wished he's my bf.. But dun wanna be third party ar.. heard he married le) I dun tink i even have the right to be unhappy or anything.. I am suppose to be happy, rite? But i cant help it that i'm unhappy AGAIN. When can i ever be happy..?
It feels kinda good..
Not studying at coffee bean..
But having different roles for a change.
In school, i am the entertainer, the monster..
Yea.. It sure is fun playing around and like everybody i know is like playing along.
But sometimes i need to be entertained too and loved.. Not laughed at all the time..
Just now meet cindy, hakim and jojo go "study" mahx.. Then it's like i dun have to sae anithing lor.. And they were like fooling around.. I just watch and laugh.
The best part is, i felt i've known them for ages though it is obvious i dun know em that well. They dun out cast ppl. They just create laughter. May be pure silliness but it's blissful to me..
For once, i am entertained..
Not that i dun like joking wif ppl.. But i need my quiet and caring moments too..
Esp wen i feeling kinda down lately.. No body can really tell rite? Cuz i'm alwaes smiling.. I dun like to frown.. Yea.. I like looking serious at times.. But frown? It's a no no for me..
I wanna feel HAPPIER!!! Sho.. Ppl out there reading this, pls show that you care or i tink i'll just shrivel and die.. It's sucking my blood dry to the very last drop (quoting ms ridz)
MUACKX!
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 8:34 PM!
