Sunday, June 04, 2006
In need of a hug,
I turned to my tatty bear..
For he was around anymore
To comfort me..
Today, i went to sentosa to watch E balloon hat fest.. I feeling kinda down.. So though i smiled a lot, i very tired and feeling kinda sad at moments.
But the experience was pretty good. I had never WATCHED a performance.. Cuz i've alwaes performed. I feel that the performance put up by CMB can be further improved.. Perhaps tis is the first time the sec3s and 2s are performing without the sec 4s so they tend to be kinda confused or something. But i'm sure they'll reach greater heights in time to come. Jia You!!!
It's sunny and hot! And Seha, Liying, Gina, Jia hua, Ade, Cheryl, Sihui, Dina and me took a really long walk to find the CMB performers. It's like hiking!! Cuz we dun wanna wait for E bus.. E queue very long. And we didn't go with the school. Before going sentosa, we went to harbour front for food. I'll show E pic we took there when it's developed!Btw, we hurried to the place where the CMB performers are held cuz Jia Hua and Sihui are performing and they need to change.. And there's no changing room! So have to hide in a corner.HMMM..
Anywae, it's pretty tiring..E folding of balloons are fun.But E rest are pretty plain and stuff.. But i fell in love with E mexican hat! It's so big and nice!!!
Aniway, i feel pretty upset.. Cuz I chose to not see some ppl at the palawan beach. I saw H and S. They saw me too and kept looking back. I tink they're trying to say "hi" or smth.. I very much wanted to say hi.. But because of wat happened b/w C and me, I'm kinda afraid to face em. Afterall, H is C's best friend. I dun even know if they blame me for making my decision.. So i chose to ignore while slipping glances at them. Haix. I feel like a rat, sneaking here and there.. But i really don't know how to face em..
I thought forgetting C will be easy.. I envy those ppl who can cry and yell or smth and forget all about their agony.. I cant. I'll look happy while the sadness flowed slowly into my heart.. I'll take a long time to forget.. Or maybe, i won't even forget at all. Afterall, scorpios can never forget things that have an impact on them. Or maybe no one can..
I tink my heart is binded to the 2 hamsters.. I cant tear myself awae.. Haix.. So i'm so tortured when they are tortured.. Haix..I wan them to have the best.. Silly me.. But i cant keep my heart from aching..*Ouch*
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 12:44 PM!
