Friday, June 16, 2006
i feel so useless..
I cant even control my illness.. I've been coughing like hell.. And it's not like i haven't seen E doc.. Or refrain from cold stuff.. Still.. I cant get well..
And my mum once again urge me to see E doc AGAIN.. When i know it'll probably waste money and i'll still cough like hell..
Why cant i will my cough to vanish?! I can stop coughing for quite some time.. But when i start, i think i can last for minutes and wake my whole family up.. Haix.. This is irritating.. And cuz of this, my tummy muscles hurt.. Every time i cough, i'll "exercise" em..Haix..
I wake up at intervals every night.. Usually at 2-3am at dawn.. Then at bout 4-5am again.. Haix.. This is so vexing.. Something's wrong with me..
And i threw a terrible tantrum last night..Den i realise the tantrum was not mine to throw.. But i still feel cheated.. But i think i wun care anymore le.. Haix.. If not i'll only get more wrinkles.. My heart is dead..
I think i must stop toking for a dae to keep my cough awae... Sad..
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 10:11 AM!
