Thursday, June 01, 2006
I didn't even know when i started to drift away
When i knew, it was already too late...
Maybe i'm drifting in a world i don't know.
I'm not rooted to the ground like i wanted to be.
Here i am.. In a world of my own..
Floating and drifting into nothing at all...
Last night, at bout 10.30pm on my handphone, i ended a call with somebody i had known for so long.. And that call created a major change in my life...
I used to be so naive. I gave in all i can in love and always hoped for the best to happen.. All these ended in the fields of disppointment..
When we had one major break up after so many small ones, my heart turned cold.. I kept a distance, fearing failure.. I thought love can still be saved.. But i was wrong. A fren's right: When love starts slipping away, the harder you want to save it, the further it goes. Love just cannot be renewed..
It is best to let go, isn't it.. Though we both agreed on it and want to be good friends.. But after some time, it appeared that you started to hate me for not telling you in the first place.. And you regretted all you have done while i didn't..
Though i slipped away, i can't help but cry. I felt lost..
Without a call from Xiner, i wouldn't have felt better.. Its always good to talk to someone..
The medicinal drugs given by the doc for flu and cough helped as well.. I felt like i'm floating and stuff.. and i'm too weak to even hold my pen.. less alone think about the happy memories.. I just hope the trip to siloso beach will be a happy and sunny one.. Cheers..
JiaMin GROwLEd @ 3:58 PM!
