PRINCESS!!!

I am the royal highness from lala land where music roam.. I have a quaver as my throne and i am dressed in the richest gowns... MUAHAHA..

Ok lahx.. Make me happy for awhile, k? Feeling very restless and upset.. I need something to spice up my life.. GOD.. So i'm painting my room..

I think my room will take ages to paint.. I'm so fickle-minded!!! I keep changing E plan.. Finally, i've decided to stop wasting paint and start on my perfect project---the HIGHNESS room. And needless to say, i'm the royal highness~!

So it's gonna be brown and cream with some pink deco.. Start to imagine NOW. Then i'll draw a crown near my bed.. Hehex.. I think it's gonna be fun.. But tedious.. And i'm like always the one who's making those changes.. I don't think my siblings care bout the room they stay in at all.. But nevermind, i LOVE the job! Paint Paint Paint.

Today, i accompany Cindy go see doc.. She's sick. Get well soon, k? The staff there like recognise her then say she very good cuz she always bring her youngest bro go see doctor. Heh heh.. Then i think she's very proud of herself.. (I think she bribed E staff) *giggles*

Must thank Xin er and Fang yi for waiting for me to buy things! Actually i thought they wanted to eat too.. So ask them go then they don't wanna eat so make me feel very stressed.. Hehex. I sae they very nice cuz they actually very tired de but still stone there to wait for me.. Sorry..

Simeng's wallet got STOLEN!!! Haix.. Actually, i noe the feeling lor.. That time, i lost my MP3.. I was damn sad!!! Especially when that thing was just a few days old.. I go around asking also no use.. Haix.. I really hope simeng will get back her wallet. Money not there nvm but at least get everything else in the wallet back lor.. Haix.. If not really heartache de.. =[

Think i go stuff my tummy with food le.. And do homework.. Haix.. Homework AGAIN.. So sick.. I'm looking forward to tml! And the weekends!!! Yay~! And good luck to all those taking their M.T O'level oral todae!!

Rapid mood swing again.. No particular reason..

Feel i should smile more? I really starting to get wrinkles..

Oh wells..

I don't even know what is it with me that you don't like. I always smile lorx.. That kind of sot sot (crazy) de gal. Is it very bad like that? I look very unapproachable?! Haix.. Dunno lehx.. Everytime you talk to me like you forced to do de.. You don't have to if you don't want to.. You dao me everytime then i wanna sae hi to you oso must think twice.. Sad sad sad.. I don't have such problems de lor..

*kick you*

Then just 3 daes in school and i think i need a long break.. This is like so sickening. I can't stand the lack of rest and the lack of fun.. Haix.. The only enjoyable thing is i get to see my friends and talk a lot of crap.. I got this very weird thing going on.. I fell in love with singing.. Woo hoo~ And making a lot of noise..hehex

Finally had some pleasure in reading E CLEO magazine and going shopping for presents with xin er. I like E milk tea at bukit batok mrt station.. Although a bit too sweet.. Hee..

I tink next time must organise a night's out.. Maybe slumber party? Hehex.. Then can go have "spa" with exfoliating things.. Hehex..

I GOT ACNE OUTBURST!!! Then i go and see doctor.. So todae damn sensitive lorx! But really relieved cause people didn't really notice it or is too nice to sae.. Some sae jokingly lahx.. But i can still take it.. You see, i have nice people around me.. *wink*

Todea be yourself dae mahx.. Den some people really look very cool lor. I realise that the trend now is 3 quarters and really retro stuff. Like polka dotx or stripe clothes. Hahax.. And big beaded neclaces.. All so 70s! Hahax.. But it's really cool to watch.. The Nasihaha dress til very cool lor! Hahax.. Then i was playing with her make up kit. Hahax. The things inside very fascinating!

But i realise most people like wear 3 quarters/jeans and tee/simple top.. Simple mahx. Like me.. Hahax.. But i love be yourself dae.. Tomorrow cannot be myself le.. Sobx..

Then just now i go eat fiesta.. Muahaha.. Not i pay of course lahx.. Thank you for E person who paid but i really enjoyed it!!! Hahax.. It's been a long time since i feel that sushi in my mouth.. I simply love jap food. They rock to the core! Mum mum...

Now got MANGO sale!! GOD.. If Xner never tell me todae, i wouldn't have known.. Wanna go there tml!! Hehex.. The goods there like half price lor!! Hahax.. Since this blog like got no guys visit, i wanna sae smth.. I LIKE TEE SHIRT BRA!!! hehex.. BUT SO EX LOR!! Don't even have discount.. So sad!! Haix..

I hope tml gonna be another wonderful dae!! hahax.. Gotta go do compre.. Forget to sae that vicki loh is my new eng cher.. She still rmb me lor.. Must be some bad stuff.. Hmm.. Let's see how things goes.. Buaix..

yea.. You make it sound even better than when you sing it..

Help me when i'm in trouble? Stand by me? Yea... I'll make sure i dream of it at night.

Or maybe, it's so fake that i cant even dream bout it.

Where were you when i was facing the consequences of something WE did?

Where were you when i need you? Partying?

And you sae you'll be there for me?

yea..

In YOUR dreams.

I shouldn't even have trusted you.. Making you look so beautiful in my image. Telling others how wonderful you are..

Of course, you are beautiful, ONCE.

Then everything changed.

Cycle in the rain to give me a stupid lip balm? Ya sure.. You'll never do that in a million years AGAIN.

When i was so desperate todae, begging you, whining even.. And wad did you do? You leave me to die.

Yea.. Of course i couldn't blame your, perfect person. I only have mysle fto blame. For putting so much trust and hope into you that i totally broke down when i was on the bus.

Imagine that.

Todae was the sadest POP i had witnessed all these years.. Haix.. Don't wanna comment much on it.. Bottom line, no sec 4s got promoted. AND the playng could have been much improved. AND the sec4s should have done something.. Haix.. Felt so sorry..

But i was pretty touched when i got E gift from my sec 2s.. Then wanna cry.. So faster hug rafiq.. If not really cry le.. But a bit sad.. Edward like wan me to leave quickly.. And he's not even present when the gifts are received.. Haix.. But youjing leeling and rafiq are SWEET!! So is ting ting and xinyi.. Though xin yi in batam then not here.. Wonder when edward will start missing me? Maybe he wun even after i died? Haix.

Had a long and nce tok with kenneth.. he's pretty cool~ I tink i very retarded though.. Heh.. GTG do hmwk le.. Cheers.

That stack of homework on my desk is freaking me out!

2 days to school!!! WHY ARE THOSE STACKS OF PAPER UNDONE?!

GOD...

Must have been slacking.. And i didn't mean to.. I just have a stomach ache yesterdae and feeling a little restless lately.. And i got mood swings...

EXCUSES!

Haix.. And here i am, blogging AGAIN..

Went to alter my 3 quarter pants yesterdae.. I'm decided to convert all my "old" clothes to new ones!!! But i shan't style them myself.. D.I.Y stuff for me keep turning out wrong.. Hmmm.. So it's safer to bring em to the tailor!! Muahahax.. And i can get em todae! So excited..

Actually i'm looking forward to mondae.. Cause got BE-YOURSELF-DAE.. Then can wear home clothes to sch!! But luckily it only last for A DAY. If not i wouldn't have gone crazy trying to match a new outfit everydae.. Heh..

Laer going to sch for PASSING OUT PARADE.. *nervous nervous* Don't even know will get promoted anot.. If not promoted den i hug my knees and cry lor.. *stick out tongue* I tink a lot of people nervous also..

They say hor, don't look at the results, look at the process..

I sae..

BULLSHIT!

Later results not good i see u cry or don't cry..

If really not promoted, i'm treating myself to ben and jerry's ice cream. But if i'm promoted, i'll still treat myself to ben and jerry's ice cream! Hahax.. My cough better le! Must be the ben and jerry's ice cream i ate that dae.

HAKIM'S RIGHT!

EAT ICE CREAM CAN HELP CURE COUGH!

*giggles*

But hakim say eat VANILLA ice cream then can cure. But i ate berry berry extraordinary that dae..

CONCLUSION..

ANY ICE CREAM FLAVOUR CAN CURE COUGH!

Think my mum will kill me if she sees this..

But..

CHEERS! i LOVE ice cream!

Gotta go~! Wish me luck for my POP!! waahh..

I'M NOT THAT CHEAP LOR!

iT'S NOT LIKE I GO HUG EVERY GUY I SEE!

WTF..

My mum like sae til i very sui bian. Cuz i saed i just gave someone a hug? I'm not that sui bian, k?! It's like if i dun like E person, I wun hug lor. But honetsly! I'm NOT ATTACHED.. WTF..

Forget it.. So useless toking to her.. How do u wan me to explain?! I don't even noe myself..

Gonna shut myself in my room. Bye!

i love durian so much.. Yummy~! Those people who dun like durian really missing out a lot ar!!! Hehex.. But my fingers smell like durian now.. Hahax..

I realise phobias are like so hard to curb.. Especially those that hit you real hard.. U just simply choke and die on E spot.. No matter how strong you are, there are bound to be weak moments.. I feel like a fierce bull, charging at everything.. Then i crashed into something and stayed wounded.. Memories are never easy to forget..

I tink i really lack security.. Never once in my life did i feel secure.. i tink i never will.. My mum once told me my slping posture.. She say i alwaes vurl up when i slp.. Never once did i spread out and slp.. And i'll gather all my stuffed animals around me at night.. Den i only slp in a small area.. And i hardly turn.. I guess slping postures alwaes tell us bout a person's personalities.. I once heard a phrase.. It's smth like, the back view of a person says everything.

I gotta go jogging le!!! Getting fatter each dae.. I love food but i hate gettng fat!! I envy ppl who can eat a lot and not get fat.. Think i gtg do hmwk le~! Cheers~!

Yesterdae went out with hakim, sihui and cindy. We go Plaza Singapura to eat long john's for lunch. A bit awkward at first cuz it's only my second time that i'm going out with hakim. But things start to brighten up after awhile then we just like joke joke smile smile lor.

Hakim taught me pool! He's a WONDERFUL teacher. Really. Maybe it was beginner's luck but i'm starting to get the hang of it.. Heex. It's cool~! I love it. I tink i'm going bac after sometime. Then go brush up E skills. I wanna be as pro as Hakim! Hehex..

Then i think cindy really shi shou.. Cuz i heard she play quite good de.. But Hakim seemed to perform better yest. Hehex.. My teacher mahx. Then kinda fun lor.. One dae must have match with cindy.. Hahax.. Cuz i only have matches with sihui.. Which as fun.. But kinda slow. The couple at E nxt table like play 6 games den me and sihui still playing E first one.. Hmmm...

After that we when to look at shoe.. Actually wanna go queenswae to buy shoes cuz more cheap mahx.. But i stumbled across a very nice shoe.. It's maroon with a pink start.. Cannot wear to sch lahx.. But i still love it all Esame.. Just very scared it'll get dirty easily.. Cuz the texture of the shoe liek cannot wash de.. Haix.. But i hope maroon will help to hide E dirt lor.. Then we were like joking in the shop. Cuz i was tryng on E shoe den it's too big mahx.. Then i said out loud " like a bit too loose" then i paused.. Cuz i was tinking whether i really wan the shoes or not.. Or shd i get another.. Then cindy and sihui tink i very funny.. Cuz shoe too big then never go get a smaller sizee. But i'm THINKING LOR! Then they sniggering lor.. Den i stone there. Bleahx.

But i got E shoes faterall.. Starting to liek it.. The shoe fits me.. Yay.. Then i did a very bad thing.. I go eat ben and jerry's ice cream.. Sick.. But i never regret.. It was cool! and taste awfully great.. Next time i wanna go eat again. When i fully recover from my awful cough. Berry berry extraordinary, here i come!

Then we walk here walk there then walk to esplanade lor.. Kinda tiring cuz it's far awae! Then go eat seafood with NO RICE. Hehex.. Just eat seafood with veggie and E oyster omelette which hakim pronounce til kinda amusing. Yum Yum~

Den we go sit on the seawall and get "emo"( i learnt that word from hakim and cindy).. And that's a seawall, not a ROCK! Heex.. The we were like looking at E "stars"? Actually we keep seeing the lights from E plane or some weird object.. Singapore so bright.. Hard to see stars.. Only see a few.. Hehex.. But enough le lahx..

Then we walk to mrt mahx.. Then saw this picture of E merlion in the shower. LAME~! But very cute. Heh.. Cuz he merlion renovating or smth? Aiya.. I dunno lahx.. Then i finally bought E seventeen mag. Cool~ Got gif some free samples.. GO BUY GO BUY.

Okiex.. Tha's all for yest. Buaix

If you hadn't broke my heart..

If you hadn't done E wrong things repeatedly..

I would have still loved you..

I once knew a person who is fun and happy.. She may be plump.. But she has tons of frenx.. Frenx who loved her and really cared.. Perhaps she wasn't so self conscious then.. Or perhaps she still had her confident then..

Now.. She changed..

She changed into someone i no longer knew.. Someone who kept all her secrets from me and i kept awae from her. Someone i find irritating and disorderly.. Someone who will NOT fit into my life.. Why? Cuz she broke my heart..

If she hadn't known this guy who is working in malaysia, she wouln't haven toked to him every nite secretly on my daddy's hp.. And he wouldn't have found out.. And she would not have to commit those crimes in the house..

I saw her get punished for E first time.. Chairs and everything came flying.. My heart crashed.. She was someone i looked up to.. Some one i toked to every nite b4 i went to bed.. Someone i never despised.. Til then..

Then it happened again.. My hse phone bill crashed.. Again, it was the same guy.. Who never seemed to have the guts to face the music with her.. A man behind the scenes.. Perhaps he knew of her evil punishments.. But he never had the courage to bring her awae to where he will love her. Or does he really love her? I don't know.. All i know is that E punishments came again. Not as harsh but colder.. Because perhaps beating didn't help at all..

I was little then.. Or maybe not that little enough be able to understand all that was happening.. The little respect i had for her fell.. It went to the bottoms.. I can not longer find it back..

Perhaps i lost her a long time ago.. I just didn't care.. To me, she was someone bad.. Some one evil enough to have no morale.. Someone who can do so many bad things repeatedly just to speak to the darn guy who never loved her..

I hated her and we drifted awae.. We came to a point where we never talked.. Then to the stage when i cannot help but scold her at times.. Perhaps this is where another younger person start to disrespect her too.. I didn't want to.. But i cant help it..

She was humiliated.. But this, i did not bring upon her.. She never seemed to grow.. As in mentally.. She can do so many things that no one of her age will ever do.. She can go to her cousin's hse and lie on E floor and slp when she's tired.. It's not even embarrassed bout it.. Thou i did asked her not to.. Even my cousin spoke up.. But she went along aniwae..

She alwaes wants to tok.. She likes to tok.. Even when she is unsure of smth, she goes ahead and sae it instead of admitting she does not noe of she is unsure.. She has many "frenx" who alwaes seemed to come to her for help.. But never do anything to help her.. She get herself into many unwanted mess.. Such as getting herself entangled in other ppl's love affair.. She wans attention.. Yea.. She got much.. But not good ones..

She need confidence.. She need morale.. Haix.. And yet i don't know how to face her.. Haix.. I dunno how to pretend nothing has happened.. Haix.. Sometimes when i see her actions, i dunno wheter to be sad or to be angry.. Haix.. I don't wan to be leading all E time! I don't wan to lead someone who is suppose to lead me! I wan someone who can communicate to me! Someone not that far off from me! But alas.. I really dunno wad i can do to make her revert back..

I was rummaging thru my stuff.. I saw all E photos she once took. She was happy.. Innocent in fact.. I loved her so.. And yet, i cant bring myself to do that again.. She needs to stand up! Haix..

Can you believe it?

A person who claims that he wants to know you and befriend u is jumping on every chance to make you feel stupid.

This is called friendly?!

GOD

THIS is called MONSTROUS..

Just wad motive does he have, doing all those little actions and saying all those mean things when he is the one who wanted to know you first. Haven even start knowing me den discriminate le. If he so clever then may i have the honour to ask him wad the hell shd i do when i face such situations?! I bet he won't even have the courage to face E challenge and now he's here complaining?!

Talk about protecting your friend. How has protecting your friend gotta do with insulting me? Forget it.. Talk to you also waste my saliva. ZIP

Extremely upset.. Anyone cares? Haix..

I finally went to E doc.. I CANT STAND IT LE!!! My throat is like killing me.. And even my tummy and my lungs are painful now.. Haix.. I don't wanna be in the sorry state til nxt wednesdae! I wanna go out and play to my fullest.. And how can i do that when i'm like coughing like hell? Haiyo..

I love E doc!!! Hahax.. Thou i didn't get to see E male one, his wife de medical skills is betta than him lor~! And she gave me something which touched my heart~! Hahax. Ahe gave me an antibiotics which will not onli kill E bacteria which caused my cough, it'll oso kill E bacteria which causes my pimples! That's y i love it! Hehex.. Cuz i having pimple outbursts lately.. Dunno y.. It's not really like a big fat pimple or anything.. It's kinda like many small ones.. Some is barely visible but still it's there.. And E pimple creams have totally no effect on E major ones which make me feel pain but are not " full grown" yet..

And i like E colour of E pills!!! ( i tink i'm gonna be crazy) It's kinda orange..Hahax.. I loved E shape.. Hahax.. Make me think of "intense" pills. Hahax.. Oval~

Anyone saw E garfield movie? Hahax.. I tink it's kinda nice~! Wanna go watch lehx.. It's a comedy right? hahax.. Can cheer people out.. Why not? =]

I think E medicine taking effect le.. Haix.. I'm geting dizzy.. So.. Buaix!~

I'm heart broken.. I'm so sorry..

Those tales are what you spun yourself.. Yet you do so much behind my back, wanting so much more to yourself.. Have you ever understood my pain? Don't be a liar! And steal my heart...

Feel so damn cheated.. Speechless.. Go awae..

i feel so useless..

I cant even control my illness.. I've been coughing like hell.. And it's not like i haven't seen E doc.. Or refrain from cold stuff.. Still.. I cant get well..

And my mum once again urge me to see E doc AGAIN.. When i know it'll probably waste money and i'll still cough like hell..

Why cant i will my cough to vanish?! I can stop coughing for quite some time.. But when i start, i think i can last for minutes and wake my whole family up.. Haix.. This is irritating.. And cuz of this, my tummy muscles hurt.. Every time i cough, i'll "exercise" em..Haix..

I wake up at intervals every night.. Usually at 2-3am at dawn.. Then at bout 4-5am again.. Haix.. This is so vexing.. Something's wrong with me..

And i threw a terrible tantrum last night..Den i realise the tantrum was not mine to throw.. But i still feel cheated.. But i think i wun care anymore le.. Haix.. If not i'll only get more wrinkles.. My heart is dead..

I think i must stop toking for a dae to keep my cough awae... Sad..

It was way too cool~ Muahahax..

The goat farm was cool! There are so many goats there and i learnt a lot!

The goats are like so enthu! You get to feed em!!! hahax.. And the pack of hay-like thingy is $2( if i rmb correctly) The baby goats are like so big. No wonder the pregnant ones have such a big tummy!

Goats are SMART! They line up themselves when they are milking.. They DON'T need to be ushered!!! And they'll just into position themselves and stop moving. They're even more obedient than humans. GOD!

The baby goat have small teeth and they can hardly chew the "hay". The ones that are a little more grow up must be fed a stick of "hay" one at a time and they'll drop it sometimes too.. Some are so eager to eat, the prop themselves up E railings! I EVEN TOUCHED A FEW OF EM! Hehex.. The i fed a herd of bucks. They really eat very fast! I can hand them a handful of "hay" and they'll gobble it up. Some got very enthu and prop up again. One kept frightening me.. It's almost as tall as my younger sis when it "stands" up! It's up til my face level. And the goats fight at time. Esp the bucks. They'll use thir "horns" to push against the body of their opponent. Hahax..

The veggie farm is not that cool.. There are a lot of weird veggies though.. AND MOSQUITOES! A big red ant bit me.. Ouch.. Luckily the swelling went down le.. Heex.. I would really like to post my pictures but.. I dun feel like bothering people..

Anywae, my mum told me a certain plant can ward off mosquitoes and i took a pic with it!!! And we bought a lot of veggie! It's so fresh~!

Then we went to E fish farm.. It was kinda fun! There's a lot of big fishes.. Really BIG! And we get to feed some of E fishes.. But all was average..

Then we went to somewhere to eat and shop.. Not shopping centre.. It's near E check point.. And all E stuff damn cheap! Cheaper then NTUC stuff.. Hehex.. Then we bought a lot.. hehex. So tired.. I go offline le.. Cheers..

Tatty bears.. Everything started with tatty bears.. Continued with tatty bears and continued with tatty bears.. I feel that tatty bears are inseparable from me.. But only one touched my heart til now.. My dear tatti sitting on my bed now..

I just went jogging! It's been so long since i exercised! I'M TIRED!!! But it feels good to noe that i'm burning off calories! (Though i noe i'm gonna get em back later =[ )

I realise people around me are sad.. A lot of em.. I wanna reach out to em.. Bring em some sunshine but i seemed so gloomy at times myself..

So to cheer myself up, i shall enjoy myself whenever i can! Or jz act crazy or smth.. Or eat CRAB!!! Heavenly~ *to those who are sad and are reading this and need someone to tok to* Call this hotline: 90096684 It's on 24hrs a dae and it's free! Except you gotta pay your hp bills~Heex..

I'm bored and hungry! But i'm excited bout tml! Cuz my mum, my younger sis and i are going to E farms!!! E veggie farm, E fish farm and E goat farm! I'm looking forward to E goat farm!!! But my mum told me not to wear anything too flowery or they'll bite~ Hahax.. I wanna taste goat milk! But i hear from ppl that it does taste too nice though~ And i wanna feast on goat meat! Oops~ I think the goats will run awae if they know my motive.. So must keep mum.. Hahax..

People~ Do you all like my new skin? Hahax.. I hope you all do! I spent bout 3 hours editing it.. Hahax.. I tink i'm learning to read those computer codes.. Hahax..

Hope you all have a happy dae~ Though it's gonna rain soon.. And don't watch soccer til too late tonite~!

I've been feeling gloomy E whole day.. Cuz i feel a good fren had been taken awae from me..

She won't share her secrets though i shared my darkest one with her..

She does not want be to share her secret codes which she shared with some others..

I wanna be there for her when she's sad but she never seems to want it..

She's upset but by doing some things she does, she feels betta and it makes me feel worst..

Perhaps i'm a little PMSsy? I just don't feel good and it had been for a long time.. I just dunno how to put it across.. Haix.. Am i selfish by hoping she'll not hurt me anymore?

I've been so sad and still that i feel liek i need pampering.. So i took a long bath.. It was kinda helpful~ And i've been steaming my face with the steam that rises from the rice cooker.. My mum told me she heard from the radio that by doing so, the skin will become smoother.. (GALS ALLERT! MUST try!)

oh wells..

It is gorgeous..

It is marvellous..

It is the delicious crab in pulau Ubin!!!

GOD

I've neva eaten something so heavenly b4...

E crab eggs.. yummy!!! And E sauce is not that spicy.. Yet, when u swallow it, it turns spicy! It's UNDESCRIPTABLE.. I nearly licked the plate clean.. Yummy! And i even ate gong-gong and a kind of fish which has onli bones in E middle. It's flesh is like a piece of matteress.. You simply cut out a whole piece to eat and you wun even touch E bones. FABULOUS.. But E gong-gong a bit disgusting.. It was fine at first.. Den after awhile, you can smell E faeces of E gong-gong in your mouth and it's pretty gross.. But i truly enjoyed it in E beggining..

I LOVED E FERRY RIDE! E waves where kinda small but nevertheless, they were refreshing and simply adoring.. E white foam surrounding E ferry was kinda cool~ Though E deck was pretty much old and chippy..

I loved E bicycle ride around pulau ubin! I was hard work though.. I tot my legs wld break.. But it didn't of coz. And i tink E mosquitoes there got a big feast when i got there.. My mum told me that they were attracted to me cuz my blood not "clean" and i must eat more vit C and fruits. Hmmm... But i enjoyed E slopes!!! They were stunning! Especially when i glide down slope.. I feel like i'm flying~! And it's not a very gentle slope.. Hehex.. I enjoyed that E most cuz when i'm cycling quickly, the wind is blowing against my me and i'm free from the tortures of E mosquitoe race.. I killed a few though..

And My family and I saw this really BIG spider.. It's about my palm size.. And it's not only one, there's quite a lot of em! And they were resting in thier webs.. I took a pic of one.. Hehex..

We visited a thai temple back there.. The statue of E God is pretty big and is made of gold. I also saw a smaller statue of a "headful" snake. There are simply too many heads!

I love pulau ubin BUT I'm neva going there to cycle again and feed E mosquitoes.. But i'll return to feast on E food again! Whoopee~!

I've misbehaved!!! I ate too much during the holidaes!!! GOD~

But i'm happy~ Hehex.. I devoured 2 big pinchers of a crab!!! YUMMY~ And it's chilli crab but hor, E chilli dunno is wat chilli.. It taste like sambal and a little like curry? And it is even cooked with curry leaves.. I LOVE IT!!! Go to Boon Lay place to eat. There's a place called taiwan xiao3 chi1 on E second storey.. Hehex...

I love all E food that was there.. Hehex.. But i tink i gotta start thinking of waes to burn off E fats le..Cuz eat too much liaox.. Hehex.. I'm one contented pig..

People are really weird creatures.. I realise that when they enter blogs that are pretty normal and don't really have anything special, they WILL NOT tag.. Or have any comments.. But when they enter blogs that are of lesbians or gays or weird ppl who are deemed annoying, they have much to tag. Even if they are strangers to the bloggers themselves.. Remember the blog "somebody and kero"? it's all so fuzzy.. People hated it and they still go and see? And go to Ting Ting's blog! Go to the webbie she said it's funny. There's a link there. There are 3 "so called annoying" ppl who are bloggers. And the ppl who tagged are like scolding em or smth.. But sill a lot of ppl tagged!!!

And do you have the habit of covering your face and peeking thru the gaps b/w your fingers when you watch horror movies? It's like you tell yourself you don't wan to see the ghost. But at the same time, when u hear the stereo effects, you are so tempted to have a peek. And when you see the ghost, you get frightened.. Hahax.. I'm one of the victims of the irony of human beings.

I really like to observe ppl.. Not that i'm crazy or anithing.. But you can really learn a lot by watching how ppl behave.. And you'll have a lot ideas. Be it a story, a comic strip, a poem or a piece of painting. Plus, it's a time when you enter that soul of yours and start thinking like nobody's business.. And that's what i have been avoiding for ages.. I've not thought much for ages.. I prefered to push the thoughts away so i will not reflect on whatever i had done.. I have "awaken" a few times yet it was not enuf to kick me into action. Yesterdae, my mum's words pricked me.. Hard. There's this news on a future doc who's gonna graduate soon but was jailed cuz he took drugs. He's a gay and even went to a hotel with 2 other gays to have sex and take drugs. He has to suffer serious consequences and can no longer be a doc. My mum toked to me.. And suddenly, anyone who knew me would have known where the topic led to.

I kept afirm front though my heart was in a mess.. The familiar sense of pain came flooding back.. What had i done..? And all at once, i sprung into action like a furious tigeress.. Tearing everything to shreds.

I day-dreamt about myself living in a beautiful condo with my beloved dog.. And just spending every second of my time being happy.. With no one.. Just me and my dog and my family and friends. How i wished i had a dog.. *Note to sihui: day-dreaming is good! It helps you know what you really want.. But too much of it will be disastrous *winks*

And i suddenly remembered something i DON'T WANT to remember.. I ate pig's trotters yest.. WAAAAH!!! I had refrain from that fatty food since goodness knows when.. And i actually ate a big piece cuz my mum saes that E substance in E pig skin will make my skin smooth.. And i actually believed her.. Oh wells.. And E worst part was i didn't noe E kong4 bak4 pao1 has so much fats in it.. It's so oily.. I only found out when i bit into it this morning... Haix.. Tricked by it's dry appearance.. URGH.

I'm looking forward to TMR! Cuz tmr, my daddy's gona bring us all to pulau ubin to cycle. And to eat seafood!!! MY FAVE! I'm so gonna love it~ Cheers~

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Sadness teaches the most memorable lessons..

Todae was pretty fun! I's E first timei went to a chalet.. Though E place is pretty much covered in sand and dirty of course.. If only i had a broom.. I would have sweeped every room to make it liveable..

I tink ting ting's bro, bing bing is very cute! At first he's very quiet. Den after sometime, he starts to open up and talk.. Hahax.. And he's kinda fun to play with!

Ting ting, Sihui, bing bing and me went to the little pool to plae the slide den i got all wet.. But it was pretty fun!

After that, we walked a great deal to rent bikes to fetch jia hua from E MRT station. E ride there was cool! Budden wen we reached there, we realise jia hua cant ride.. -_-" But aniwae, we meet joey, you jing and lee ling there so they pei jia hua take bus and we ride back lor. Then we ride here ride there til they reach escape theme park den we ride to fetch em.. Hehex. Then we got bike riding competition along the wae, pretty cool?

When we got back, Tan was setting E fire and cooking.. Hahax. I realise that Efood he cook very nice to eat lehx. After E others took over, the food got rawer and rawer. I ate a chicken which still had blood and it's meat was still stuck to E bone! GROSS!!! Then E cooking time was taking to long so joce and jessica was busy boiling E hot dogs and crab stick. YUM! *although E crab stick turned out to be too mushy=P

Anywae, it's cool to eat wth friends. And to entertain ourselves, Ivan was singing.. Hahax. No comments. And i realise smth, SEHA CAN PLAY THE GUITAR AND SING! OMG.. And i tink she actually sounded quite nice.. Hahax. She's someone with a lot of talent. =]

Tan had to leave half wae so E food was pretty bad after some time. But i love marshmellows! E wae they tasted hard on E outside and melt in urmouth after u BBQ em. THEY ROCK!!! Hehex.. I liked the chalet! And i tink those who chose not to come when they can is missing out a great deal.. Hahax.. We were like crapping awae lor.. Very fun.. Hahax..

I realised there's a lot of ppl i'm not familiar with.. Just now was probably the first time i toked to em in E entire band life! OH GOD! But everything was awesome. Just awesome. I really hoped I can stay overnight!!! Haix.. But so sad.. I cant.. Haix..

Anywae, i suddenly got pimple outburst.. I dunno y!!! Haix. And i'm currently trying to heal them b4 i step out of E hse tml and look hideous. And i tink i ate too much so i shall exercise tml!! Hahax.. Or maybe not cuz i too lazy le. Hehex..

PS. I'm damn mad at C. I wanna gag her.. Haix. She's soo mean.. And i hate tat..

my cousin and i
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Today had a pretty ok day.. I SKIPPED GEOGRAPHY! Oops.. Hehex.. Cuz i'm kinda sianx that i gonna stay and listen to nothing.. So i sneaked off wif Xiner and Sihui then we go eat at Jurong entertainment centre..

I used to feel very sad when i look at couples.. They seemed so sweet in their relationship. Everytime i had "mini-break ups" or major ones, my heart ached when i saw those couples immersed in their happy moments. But strangely enough, this "final break up" did not make me envy those couples. Perhaps i'm already too sick of love and need a long time to recuperate my lost energy.

I really want to thank the friends who have listened to my woes. For not finding me irritating and turning me away. It's always good to have a listening ear even if no comments are given. I guess friends are very important to all of us in every stage of our lives. THANKX!

i'm looking forward to going to sentosa tomorrow. It will be a time when i let myself go FREE~ Afterall, i missed that freedom.. Three cheers for FREEDOM..

I don't want to get hurt anymore for the time being. And i know i will if i steer back into the path where i just left. Never be afraid to try again! (But not for now) *winks*

Anyway, today i learnt a lot bout chromosomes. I realised by saying "there is a girly side in all of us", it is theoretically correct. Cuz females haf XX chromosomes and males have XY chromosomes(biology students will know~) It's a fun discovery~ =P I LOVE BIOLOGY!

Anyway, i realise i'm really hapy when i am with my friends. But when i am alone, i start to feel the haunting sadness i have hidden at the bottom of my heart. And my phobia had gotten worst.. It's a bit sad..

Ive always had a soft spot for animals. And i'm sure many of us do.. Although the hamsters are not mine, i feel sorry for them for having to resign to their fate of uncaring owners. I always believed hamsters have their own tinking and should not be seen as something that can switch masters after they had settled in or ill treated.. Haix. But yet i am just about to witness the fate of 2 pitiful hamsters.. My heart ached..

So i really hope ppl will treasure their pets and of course, the people around them. =] And i really hope the hamsters will be fine..

Floating and drifting into nothing at all...

Last night, at bout 10.30pm on my handphone, i ended a call with somebody i had known for so long.. And that call created a major change in my life...

I used to be so naive. I gave in all i can in love and always hoped for the best to happen.. All these ended in the fields of disppointment..

When we had one major break up after so many small ones, my heart turned cold.. I kept a distance, fearing failure.. I thought love can still be saved.. But i was wrong. A fren's right: When love starts slipping away, the harder you want to save it, the further it goes. Love just cannot be renewed..

It is best to let go, isn't it.. Though we both agreed on it and want to be good friends.. But after some time, it appeared that you started to hate me for not telling you in the first place.. And you regretted all you have done while i didn't..

Though i slipped away, i can't help but cry. I felt lost..

Without a call from Xiner, i wouldn't have felt better.. Its always good to talk to someone..

The medicinal drugs given by the doc for flu and cough helped as well.. I felt like i'm floating and stuff.. and i'm too weak to even hold my pen.. less alone think about the happy memories.. I just hope the trip to siloso beach will be a happy and sunny one.. Cheers..

I'm DreAmINg A FaSHioNiSt DreaM ANd An ACCounTanT DreaM~!
LiVE LiFe TO thE FuLLeST~


SCHool
Leavin' CSS JJC
BirthDAE
10 NOV
LuRVESsS
flowers like tulips,roses and ester lilies
the beach!
Japanese food & seafood
watch CARTOONS
adventure!!
listen and watch people play the piano

[[WiShLiSt]]
a digital camera
a laptop
have a slpover at fren's house
a prom dress of my dreams~
a unique earphone (must be designed)
a handphone
LOTS AND LOTS OF SALMON SASHIMI WITH WASABI AND SOY SAUCE
an ADIDAS jacket
for people to love me for who i am and not what they want me to be
listen and watch people play E piano for me on my bdae.. Smth classical or slow jazz?

HatEsS
feeling sick
feeling pressured
COCKROACHES
a meaningless life
being lied to







DaVe.a.k.a CiNdY
Dina
DoRis
JeNmEy
JunHong
Kelvin
LeeLing
LiWee
LiXuan
LiYing
MaHmUdAh
SaRaH dA jIe
TingTing
WanQing
YiNgLi
YouJing
ZiYiNg
SaXoPhOnE bLoG
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